Almost fapped after a very long time.

Stand strong my brother., if u relapse, u will realise it wasnt worth it. Keep going

 

Maybe your testosterone levels hit the clouds the last week. You might have changed your lifestyle and started working out. Lifting weights increases your testosterone levels. If your life style hasn’t changed. It’s your libido what triggered from any external influences like watching erotic scenes or staring at girls in the street. Hence, your mind keeps those visuals in it and therefore your lust gets high to the point that it might control you if you do not have the will power and the motivation that keeps you resisting what arouses you ! So try and find what motivates you and keep your mind busy in any constructive activity like working out. If you feel bad about what you’ve done lately then this is a good sign. It means you won’t give up easy. You wont give up easy on something you feel shameful of.
Good luck

 

Don't feel guilty about it, only makes it worse. What's these questions about the relapse:
What did I do well and why?
What could I do better and how?
What Can I improve next time?

 

The larger domino won’t come unless you give it your permission. I mean if you stayed away from what arouses you then you’re fine. Sure, sometimes it is hard to resist the urges. But like I told you earlier. Find what motivates you and keep thinking about it. Do any constructive acivity. Put your energy in something alternative. For example when you feel aroused start jumping. Seriously, I am not joking. Also you can try taking a cold shower which was proven that it extinguishes the flames of lust.

 

I think as long you stay away from what arouses you whether if it's visuals or some thoughts in your brain and keep resisting it by any means necessary, then the urges won't be as strong as they were. Therefore your self-control will be easier. All of this is just a matter of patience and perseverance.

 

I read that book and it did definitely help me get free for 30 days. However i had some other underlying issues in my life and it increased the fear. After a month clean i hit the biggest depression i have ever experienced and broke down in front of my family. I wanted to die i wanted to end the suffering. Im glad the book worked for you but it didnt for me.
Anyway, a year free is good man. You definitely are completely rebooted so you should just go out and try and find a girl. Even for me, ive only fapped like 3 or 4 times in the space of a month and a half and i still have many of the benefits of nofap i havent had before starting (morning wood, natural libido returning) and since im having them after such a short period of abstinence, i wouldnt worry. Just dont beat yourself up. This is why i fell into depression, i hold myself to an unusually high standard. It helps me everywhere else in life but here it made things harder.

Dont worry and just get back on the right track my man. Youre free anyway.

 

Learn from it and come out stronger. How did you get to that point? How can you make sure you don't get there again? What steps can you take? Good luck!