[30-CHALLENGE] THE THIRTY DAYS CHALLENGE !

Change your mindset of abstaining from PMO for 30 days to abstaining from PMO for life. Learn to hate porn from your heart and when you get urges especially in the next couple of days, know that it's temporary and it'll soon fade. Know this, You control your mind not the other way around. You are in control of the situation.

Hope this helps

 

Day 3. I feel like I've hit a flatline today and it happened earlier than I expected. I see this as a healing process and I'm moving on...

 

Day 29

 

Day 20 done!
Had some urges this morning but not as bad as the last few days.
Only 10 more days, I can do this

 

I have just started like a min ago. I hope I can make it to day 30th

 

Day 1. I am back. Need to continue.

 

Day 8/30.

I am trying to have an attitude which , no matter what happen, I will not do pmo. No matter if I am tired, stressed out, lonely... I will change the situation, or wait for changes, but I wont give in. Hope I keep this attitude.

 

day 17

 

Day 5

 

Day 28.
Yesterday was so hard to stop the urges. I can't remember doing anything as hard as this.

It started like a negotiation. I was finding excuses on how could I do PMO: (I deserve time for myself, it's been a hard month, I can start again with the help of a counsellor, it is normal to relapse...) and then I felt cornered by the feeling of doing it... overwhelmed. All i could think of was to do it... I couldn't here my voice anymore, it was like if someone very persistent wanted my full attention, and wouldn't take a no for an answer...

I came to NoFap and did not work. I wrote the negative (emotional and physical) consequences of doing PMO and it worked for a very little time... I then visited NoFap again... watch a video of how this addiction destroys relationships and It helped.

I remembered how tiny I felt when I was doing PMO and also in how much pain I was. The fear of feeling that again stopped me. I quickly went to bed to avoid the temptation.

Today I had a wonderful morning and I contacted lots of friends and went for a walk. Came back home and had a nap. When I woke up all I could think was doing it again. I had a plan. I would spend the whole evening doing it. That's 5 or 6 hours "for myself only"...

NoFap helped again. Here I am writing instead of doing PMO. Im going out now. I just hope that latter this evening I'll be strong enough to stop it.
So close to finish the challenge and so close of failing.

 

Day 2/30

 

Day 13l30.

 

Day 24/30

 

day 21 of 30

 

Day 13/30

May 7th = 30days!

 

Check in day 9

 

27/30

 

Today my first day .. I m so endulge in fap ..And now pledge to rid from this.. . Kindly support me dear frnd

 

Day 18

 

Day 12 & 13/30

Sorry I missed yesterday's update, I've been busy with family the last couple days. Friday was a pretty good day with temptation, kept myself busy and engaged most of the day.. Today I was busy getting ready for a Passover meal, a sweet time with family and friends. I don't think it's just wishful thinking, but I really believe that I experience a more full range of emotions when I'm not in the throes of PMO, that my perceptions of women are more dynamic, and I can see them in a more complete way. Emotional wholeness.

Back to my apartment tomorrow, hopefully I'm able to be able retain the habits of the last couple weeks!

Shalom
urban_pilgrim