Today was harder than usual.

So right now I am visiting my hometown ,I am in my natural habitat, my room etc, no roommates like in uni, so I was sitting today alone in home and the urge came like a train, soooo strong it even got me kinda high, I could even focus on my essay, I was fighting against opening a P tab, I went outside for a walk, it helped, but when I returned, it got worse, so I was holding on till 6pm so I can go to the gym, I was even thinking about skipping gym and just relapsing, but NO , I stood my ground and went to the gym, when I returned home from gym, urge was gone, I felt so good, bro called me to go outside, so we went for a drive, listened to music, sang, talked about life and it was so great, I am really happy that I didn't relapse, because I wouldn't enjoy that moment if I did, life was so beautiful when it is evening, your fav music is playing and you just surf with your hand through the air from open window at the sunset. Stay strong guys.