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Finally Bored with Porn...rebooting

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by SpringWater, Apr 26, 2019.

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  1. Apr 26, 2019 #1
    SpringWater

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    I relapsed...again...over the past two weeks every few days I watch and pmo.

    Today I went all in..watching all the shit..last time it was more mellow stuff.

    So I can’t control the flood gates..how long will it take me to realize this?

    I was even bored with most of it.

    The more I have relapsed lately the more some part of me is paying attention to the ridiculous part of porn and to the damaging aspect.

    I use because I get bored
    I use because I lack excitement
    I use because I’m lonely

    I go more extreme because of low self esteem or that I think watching or “doing” that is t cheating.

    I’m tired of this.

    This is my new journal. Today is the first day of the rest of my life.
     
    SpringWater, Apr 26, 2019
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  2. Apr 30, 2019 #2
    nazonokusa

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    If your addictive behaviour is starting to feel boring, that would be a big red light for your brain health.

    "Wanting it more but liking it less" is the core cycle of addiction's brain changes.

    The depressive nature of addiction comes straight from that core too. Not only are you "liking it less" but you are also liking everything in life less.

    This explanation of addiction seems to really match my personal experiences fighting with mine.

    Of course we are bored & lack excitement & lonely, it's nobody's fault when our brain can't respond well to life's various pleasures.
     
    nazonokusa, Apr 30, 2019
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  3. Apr 30, 2019 #3
    nazonokusa

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    I think I know what you are feeling like right now, from what I was feeling like in March.

    I was deep into all of my internet-related addictions, but none of it was fun. Everything in life was foggy and negative.

    Addiction is just horrible like that.
     
    nazonokusa, Apr 30, 2019
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