I'm Ready. Finally.

I'm not good with introductions, but that is something I hope this journey will help.

For starters, I was never addicted to hard-core pornography. I was (am) addicted to the types of images one would find on an Instagram model's page. Why it is that type of pornography I became addicted to, I am not sure. (Maybe because it was more grounded in reality, as I wasn't actually going to see a naked woman in reality.) I have been going on and off with NoFap since around January 2018 (my record is 15 days), but this is the first time I've engaged in a forum. I used to think I was above it- strange how I could have such a massive ego and no confidence at the same time.

The reason I want to do this now- and for real this time- is because over the last few months I realized how off the pace I am in regards to social interactions. I am an extremely introverted and shy person. I want to be able to be a "normal" person (at least) in conversation. If I can achieve that... it would be my greatest achievement. I know that might sound strange, but understand that I become extremely nervous just having to go and fill my car up with gas. However, I think this journey (in my case) is going to be less about becoming braver towards True Reality, and more about getting away from My False Reality- a place that treasures porn, despair, remorse, depression, a certain degree of self-harm, and Complete and Utter Jealousy. I cannot live in that place anymore.

To close this post, I have a question for the NoFap Legends out there (anyone who has made it to 30 days is a Legend in my books). What should I do if I get an urge after exercise? I try to run everyday, but sometimes I will get an urge a few hours post-workout. Would you suggest a hot bath, cold bath, maybe more exercise, or something entirely different?

Thanks,
DeltaDelta10