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30 day time bomb!

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Ics2000, Mar 14, 2015.

  1. Mar 14, 2015 #1
    Ics2000

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    So I smash out 30 days hard mode and can feel myself becoming superhuman. The last day (30) also lands on my birthday, so a huge present to myself.

    However; 5 hour sleep on the night, hungover, lacking willpower and curiosity - I spend 2 hours that day intentionally looking at pictures and then porn. NoFap or edging, but breaking my bottom lines all the same.

    I'm back on the horse and getting my next 24 hours underway. One positive I can take is that I didn't 'binge' or derail for the next few days. I can see how people do this, the addiction is still strong even after a solid month of nothing. A sobering realisation.

    The worse part? The porn gave me no comfort or arousal. I just felt bored, let down, tired.

    To all the rebooters - keep up the good work! I'm coming back for you : )

    And if you set a goal, go for it! But just think about having the next one ready too. I didn't, and allowed a small window of opportunity which got in my way.
     
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  2. Mar 14, 2015 #2
    ekoluomu

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    That's the spirit, mate! Just get back in the saddle and fly. :D
     
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  3. Mar 14, 2015 #3
    NeedAChange

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    Great to see you kept some control and didn't PMO. Would've been so easy to be lazy and just go back to the same old routine.

    As you say, the addiction is still strong and I can't say, hand on heart, that it will ever go away completely, but I think with time and experience it will get so much easier to deal with.

    You sound as if you're in good shape for your next challenge so go well with that, and well played your Villa boys today!
     
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  4. Mar 14, 2015 #4
    Ics2000

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    Cheers! The Villa 3 points today will help kick start my recovery! Thanks for the message. I am pleased I kept the hands above the waist. One good sign in getting there.
     
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  5. Mar 14, 2015 #5
    Ics2000

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    Thanks for the support - good work with you recovery mate!
     
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  6. Mar 14, 2015 #6
    jbastoniv

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    For the most part I don't have cravings. But then, out of no where I think about it. I think about binges, edging, and PMEing for hours. But I push these thoughts out as quick as I can. It just hits me at random time. But the majority of the time I never think about it. I do see women, it seems like more and more women (that's probably just in my mind, I probably notice more) and I really admire them. It is so easy for me to engage in conversation with them, and they are so willing to reciprocate. This is true with my wife as well, she seems way more into me.

    Stay strong and don't give in. I remember when I PME all of the time when I did O it was always a huge disappointment.
     
    jbastoniv, Mar 14, 2015
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