THE DUELS OF NOFAP: NO PMO TOURNAMENT | OPEN FOR ALL

I agree with this.

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my ex was into hardcore simulated R and only now I see how messed up she was, she completely depended on me and it wasn't normal. There was times I'd have to really make her eat otherwise she wouldn't eat coz she was upset and I didnt realise it but now I see she was a flirty girl and brought other guys onto her. She used to tell me how she wanted to feel what it would be like more than one guy so she wanted to dream that badly and she was like well wouldn't any girl want more than one guy. She used to be an innocent girl but as things developed it kind of got extreme. So basically after I left her she started doing what I expected in jjust rebounding with other guys, I messaged her at the time because i missed he, the relationship dynamic and she told me that she got f forcefully and she blamed it on me and said it was my fault because I left her that it happened. Around 2 weeks later I brought it up coz it was bothering me badly, she told me she forgotten all about it and was cool w the guy who did it (who was one of my old friends but she wouldn't tell me who) and started having a go at me for bringing it up. Knowing her before it's the exact type of things she'd fantasise but she actually went out there and did it. All my old friends were trying to get her, I go uni far away and I'm not friends with anyone from my home area anymore and I completely cut off my ex. Other girls I've talked to from my area all have the same type of I'll annoy you and you take it out on me kind of fetish, I'm not the person who I once was, I don't even think there's any morally right girls out there anymore but on here because i'm so used to the type of girls from my area. So when I read that that girl just didn't reply to your kind request I took the different view from others and saw it as because she doesn't care about walking but wants more. I obviously and am probably wrong though because I don't know the girl and maybe girls outside my area aren't like this and hold themselves in higher regard but going uni I don't see much different.

 

this is exactly what I did before coming back to nofap. I told myself I've reached the lowest of the low as I sat there having M'd the 4th time of the day and I said to myself it's time to stop taking myself as a joke, time to make others look at me in the way I want. I reached breaking point and I told myself I have to do anything to become free from it. @CoolBuddy7

 

Everything is deleted in which is a stepping stoone to P like instagram and youtube. It helps if I listen to Quran because it's got nice recitation it may help you also even if you don't understand it.

 

@CoolBuddy7 and @Zen Mode . Keep fighting my brothers, this is a war. Adjust your strategies find your weaknesses and destroy them.

 

Thank you for the reminder, I have changed wordings and asked God for forgiveness. My anger overtook me but it shouldn't have.

 

made me laugh, it's just messed up how such an innocent person who I grew up with developed like that. I have said that about my ex but as a guy myself I could''ve done a lot better in the past with girls and I recognise that and I recognise I have sinned a lot so I ask God for forgiveness and he has changed my ways through his mercy.

Allah is the ally of those who believe. He brings them out from darknesses into the light. - 2:257

The word for darkness is in plural, from the different shades of darkness and the word for light is singular. No matter where we are God is the intensely merciful and entirely merciful and I ask him for forgiveness for every sin I have done in my sinful past.

 

I need to show that, I've prayed so much to God for it and it's up to me to stick to it and fight for it.

Once a week if you can brother. If you can't, don't worry.

 

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