About to relapse..

You are sober, but you may not be moving into positive things. The absence of PMO leaves a very real void in your life. If you do not fill it with something positive, you will fill it with something negative. Perhaps rude, cruel behavior is how you are doing so.

Do not go back to the lie and destruction of PMO. Instead, imagine your ideal life and start moving toward that. Add in a healthy, fun habit/hobby to fill the time and use up the energy you used to put into PMO. Then you will not just be abstaining from PMO; you will also be moving into recovery.

I am cheering you on toward a better life!

 

Just keep going. Let yourself recover. I am almost at 20 days, the furthest I have gone since the beginning of February.

My mind started sowing the seeds to relapse this morning but I was able to fend it off. I had a pretty stressful week and have still managed not to relapse.

I started reading books again and limiting my time on the internet, plus making sure I meditate properly again. My mind kept getting stuck in a world of negativity instead of thinking of the bigger picture. That's where relapse occurs for me. I believe the path to recovery for me is trying to get out of my mind and treat myself more positively. The philosophies surrounding 'the now' are my biggest help currently. Ignoring the mind and concentrating on seeing the world differently is the key for me.

EDIT: OK, restart and go again. Don't binge.