My first relapse ruined me

the tittle is a little bit extreme but I’d just like to share my story and who I am. I was on my first streak of 2 weeks and I physically felt different. I felt more in control of who I was and my emotions.

The part I guess a lot of people want to hear is that during these first two I actually got the guts to ask two girls out (just casual nothing serious) and one said yes an the other we were trying to work out a suitable date. Everything else was going quite well as other addictions I had like playing PlayStation too often began to decrease too.

I relapsed after 2 weeks and it broke me. Both girls cancelled and we don’t talk anymore, Ive been playing more PlayStation than ever and just feel foggy and lost. It could all be a coincidence but I also did feel a change in my own personality from bright to just dull.