New here !! ;D need advice please

RicardoZT · May 31, 2019

Hello all , wish you success and best of LUCK FOR ALL OF YOU.
So anyway , i been trying to remove my Porn addiction since 3 years ago but i wasn't serious really about it , i was going like 2 months then relapse then wait for 3 months then try 1 months then relapse , tbh i was giving up to my cravings easily , until last April where i become 24 years old , i decide it's time to nuke this shit habit for good .

I manage to hold up for almost 28 days but some days where really hard on me , even though i removed all my social media accounts , i no longer watch porn ( heck never was interested in it only watching it when i got cravings for PMO i think this what they call addiction ? ) sometimes i become so stressed and depressed that i start looking for any pic or video that can Ignite me , because on top of trying to rewire my brain i'm trying to remove other bad habits that waste my time, manga , anime ,social media , games , it's like I'm literally fasting .

i managed to maintain this for almost 28 days as i said but the real problem kicked in this morning i woke up and i felt pissed for no reason , I went back to sleep ( i wasn't 100% sleep tho) then i started fantasizing about F*** my girlfriend on all different ways i could think off ( yes i do have a girlfriend which was one the reasons i started to take this seriously, we still never had any real sex ) after my small nap i woke up and find some leakage in my pants , i didn't feel any kinda of short relief dopamine ? no did i feel like i used to when i masturbated ? hell my mood still the same ? it felt like watching some video , but I didn't not masturbate ;

Is this this count as a relapse ? i getting PORN thoughts almost all day so to not giving up to them i keep imagine my self hitting those thoughts / images with bullets (LOL) and butchering all the characters inside those thought to make it as ugly as possible , and sometimes this do , i didn't masturbate to my fantasy so I'm really lost now did I just screwed up and relapsed ?

Human v2.0 · Jun 1, 2019

Hey bro! Welcome to this great community!

Your brain is addicted to the feeling of dopamine, dopamine is released when we are about to experience something exciting. Guess how it feels to start watching porn when you are on a challenge of not doing it? It feels exciting... so ya, your brain released dopamine, which is the actual addiction.
Your brain will try to trick you in A LOT of ways, A LOT, you can't imagine what train of thoughts your brain can go through just to make you watch some P and finally end up M and then O.
I have relapsed 17 times since I started, I have learned from every fall, I have learned every possible trick.
The brain is not evil, he actually wants the best for you, he wants you to leave your legacy, he wants you to get pregnant every possible attractive girl alive, and he actually believes that when you watch P in the screen of your phone, you are fucking someone!

When you abstain from dopamine, you will get the withdrawal effects and some of these are mood changes, getting depressed is WAY too common, also getting pissed for no reason.

I also have a gf, and the other day I was pissed at her for no reason, it was weird.

The best way to beat this addiction is to read success stories, keep yourself busy and my very favorite one... understand it, understand what is going trough your mind, understand why you are being horny at that moment, understand why you feel so tempted to watch porn, google every possible feeling you have next to the words "nofap" and you will see you are not alone.

Ethan1982 · Jun 1, 2019

Also analyzing yur addiction behaviour could help: when, how, how long, etc.

Abmu · Jun 1, 2019

As time goes on u will learn , don't rush the process

Deleted Account · Jun 1, 2019

Hey & Welcome to NoFap Community!

You are in the right place for recovery here. We are so glad to have you with us to beat this addiction together.

You can go read some Success Stories in the "Success Stories" section to learn more about the benefits of NoFap , get useful tips and ideas to help you in the reboot.

If you have any question about rebooting, you can ask it in the "Rebooting" section.

And I would recommend you to make your own journal in the "Reboot logs" corresponding to your gender & age to track your everyday progress.
You can also join challenges in the "Events & Challenges" section, to keep yourself motivated and focused.

You may start by checking the links below:
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Best of luck to you in your journey!

-The Winner

The prodigal son · Jun 1, 2019

RicardoZT said: ↑

Hello all , wish you success and best of LUCK FOR ALL OF YOU.
So anyway , i been trying to remove my Porn addiction since 3 years ago but i wasn't serious really about it , i was going like 2 months then relapse then wait for 3 months then try 1 months then relapse , tbh i was giving up to my cravings easily , until last April where i become 24 years old , i decide it's time to nuke this shit habit for good .

I manage to hold up for almost 28 days but some days where really hard on me , even though i removed all my social media accounts , i no longer watch porn ( heck never was interested in it only watching it when i got cravings for PMO i think this what they call addiction ? ) sometimes i become so stressed and depressed that i start looking for any pic or video that can Ignite me , because on top of trying to rewire my brain i'm trying to remove other bad habits that waste my time, manga , anime ,social media , games , it's like I'm literally fasting .

i managed to maintain this for almost 28 days as i said but the real problem kicked in this morning i woke up and i felt pissed for no reason , I went back to sleep ( i wasn't 100% sleep tho) then i started fantasizing about F*** my girlfriend on all different ways i could think off ( yes i do have a girlfriend which was one the reasons i started to take this seriously, we still never had any real sex ) after my small nap i woke up and find some leakage in my pants , i didn't feel any kinda of short relief dopamine ? no did i feel like i used to when i masturbated ? hell my mood still the same ? it felt like watching some video , but I didn't not masturbate ;

Is this this count as a relapse ? i getting PORN thoughts almost all day so to not giving up to them i keep imagine my self hitting those thoughts / images with bullets (LOL) and butchering all the characters inside those thought to make it as ugly as possible , and sometimes this do , i didn't masturbate to my fantasy so I'm really lost now did I just screwed up and relapsed ?
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Not a relapse man!! Definitely give yourself a pass on this one!

Fantasy can be a path towards PMO but you are also a human male with a girlfriend and sex is not a bad thing to think about. Just keep an on on the compulsion or obsession level of it and be easy about it. You are human and a sexual being as well.

Always be positive · Jun 2, 2019

Welcome to the community this will help you on your journey

https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/if-youre-struggling.232140/

Its not a relapse, as long as you dont watch P or M brain is recovering, through time that will pass too

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