Relapsed today after 30 days of no PMO.

Next time don't give in man. No surfing through porn websites. No Instagram models. The key is to not give in because even if you tell yourself that looking at this half-naked model wouldn't do anything but it will lead you down to the rabbit hole and eventually, you'll be jerking off to porn.
Just don't give in. Not even a little bit.

 

You know what? There’s some good in the despair you feel!
Write down all the things you may think about yourself right now, write it down and keep that paper/note or whatever you’ll write on.
Then whenever you feel like you’re gonna relapse, read it again, again, again and again. Make sure you don’t want to feel this way ever!
Keep your life busy with work, studying, friends, helping others so that you won’t have time to feel depressed for a few days.
Sometimes I get urges so strong, but the only thing that keep me from relapsing is that I know how bad I will feel and how it will prevent me to do the things I have/want to do.
And I also want you to remind yourself all the benefits you felt during these 30 days! 30 days is amazing, so be proud of yourself, you will get to the top of that big mountain even if you fall, even if your knees are bloody with scars, even if you’re exhausted because you’re gonna stand and rise. You owe it to yourself !

 

It's funny how I experienced something similar. Only yesterday, I peeked on porn for no more than 5 minutes; ofc it all started with an Instagram picture. Peeking for 5 minutes made me depressed again as if I binged on PMO again. Doing a streak during this month has been pretty easy, but the moment I reached day 30, urges launched their attack on me again. We Muslims believe that during Ramadan, angels come down to earth to chain down Satan and his minions so that everyone, be they Muslims or not, will find it easier to be good persons. What's mesmerising to me is that yesterday marked the 30th and last day of Ramadan and lots of people around here relapsed yesterday. I know some of you guys here might argue that a lot of people do relapse everyday and this doesn't make this special. Yet, I have gone and asked some non-Muslim members here: they attested that they felt less likely to relapse for the last 30 days. I am not preaching. I am just amazed as to the correlation between the two: Ramadan and people being immune to resist to relapse during it. It could pretty much be a placebo, but I just felt like venting here since I am depressed AF and dwelling on matters of faith does help alleviate my depression.
Wish you a speedy recovery, man.
Cheers.

 

Every time I feel an urge I just take a moment and scream in my head “DONT FUCKING DO IT” and It goes a way depending how strong my sexual energy is that moment.