Day 71 and things have been really hard lately

So the month of May was probably the best week I've had in I don't know how long. I was confident and sociable and I was experiencing life as it should be experienced. But over the last couple of weeks I've entered into the worst flatline I think I've ever had. Everything from extreme anxiety to incessant sexual dreams have haunted me over this period. Today has been difficult as I'm going through some depressive symptoms, and it feels like I can't even think straight. I've been having urges lately, and I've slightly subjected myself to some sexual thoughts that have mustered up some urges to relapse.

I don't intend on relapsing, I really just need some words of encouragement in this difficult time. I feel like I've sort of set myself back with the brief fantasies I've had lately, and that thought is what my mind is using as fuel to try to drive me to relapse

 

Whenever I have a thought, it never lingers for too long. I'm doing my best at gradually lessening the intensity and frequency of such thoughts.