I'm beyond help right now

You can do it. You just have to want it bad enough.
Remember how much relapse sucks and think about what upsets you about PMO.
I don't think you should hurt yourself, relapsing should be punishment enough.
If it's not, maybe you are not ready to give it up.
Also you are most likely to get a lot of strong desires to do it for the first 4-7 days, but it lessens a bit after that.

 

Hello Chris !
Thanatos is right, the fast to relapse is already hard and the feeling we have is soo bad that this very punishment is largely enough. Nobody is perfect. You fell today but it doesn't mean you will fall tomorrow. Use this rage you have agains PMO. Direct it like if it was a true ennemy.

Don't abandon. It's hard, it's awful, and it's feeling unfortunately good during 5 seconds, but the cost of it is too expensive.

Take care Chris !!

Pisc

 

Chris never ever ever ever give up hope. If u fap everyday for the next year it won't be nearly as bad as losing hope. U lose hope all is lost friend. U will destroy urself. We are a family here. We all have one goal and we all stick together. When u fail we feel the pain. When u are triumphant we feel triumphant too. If u give up and disappear that is a tragedy. U may feel hopeless especially after falling. That is normal. That's part of this addiction. It wants to keep u in that cycle. U feel bad, lonely, empty, desperate, stressed, insecure, HOPELESS, u act out ur addiction to ease the pain. Then when ur done pain is back and it's worse. This pain keeps growing and growing until u finally respond to it and say something like, "you know what...u aren't that bad, yes I slipped again. So what. I've been slipping for years. What's one more time mean? It's not that devastating. Now I'm back." Then u move on and pretend u never slipped at all. When we dwell on our failings and beat ourselves up and let the demon of shame and hopelessness take over, we are sure to keep failing. U must respond to ur relapses as they never occurred in the first Place.

U need a plan friend. Take inventory of urself.
Watch for triggers and see what u can do to stop them. Sometimes it takes white knuckling them just to get thru. But above else, there IS hope friend. U are not a failure and you are totally capable of beating this thing. It has been beaten by many many people who felt as u do right now. Stay engaged on this site. People on here really care and offer great advice and support. U stay in the fight and u will eventually win friend.

God bless u, brother Leo

 

you can, you will. you will get better, you will improve.

 

Applause for leo

 

Yeah just had hard relapse, 1 moment you are being strong resisting everything next moment you end up with some megapack of a pornstar fapping away until you feel drained and you want it all to end. I keep telling myself that whenever urges strike is like someone slapping myself and that with time my face will get so hard that it won't bother me. Such thing may not ever happen, but if you strongly believe it, it does happen. But one thing is gonna happen for sure if you do give up, you are gonna feel miserable for not maintaining control over your actions. Let that be the fear factor. Fear has proven to be effective for preventing many actions good or bad. Next time we get an urge have an image of your miserable self and try to override your lust. It may make you feel like shit, but it will be less shitty than if you have succumbed. Or you could relapse for the rest of your life. You have to accept this possibility aswell if you want to move forward. But it is possible not to relapse aswell, we all know it is.

 

Do not give up hope. Do stop reading erotica, it will always lead to relapse, and that goes for all P and P substitutes. You must change your routine, you must keep yourself busy and try to cut the alone time out if at all possible. You need to be around people, and a significant other would be a huge plus because you can hug and cuddle, releasing oxytocin to help comfort you.

Keep making goals and sticking to them.

 

U here Chris ...Don't give up

 

chris08, let me tell you something. Coming from a guy who has just relapsed himself, I can understand where you are coming from. It takes over you at your weakest, it tells you "f**k it it'll feel good." That same asshole voice in your brain says that you're not worth it, you fapped, you can't change. Giving up sounds easy, heck I've done it a couple times where I've isolated myself from everybody not even coming out to eat and it made me feel worse. There's a point in time where you just have to cut the losses and move on. I'm not saying to be shameless, but tell yourself that you're better that that. That voice in your head isn't you. The real you is the man you want to be, the voice of conscience. Listen to him, he'll lead you to a better standard. I believe in you man, like I believe in myself. There's people out there that want to be with you, there's a world out there full of adventure. You story's just beginning my friend, and you're holding the pen. So write your character,write him as the biggest badass the world has ever seen. Then write the setting around you and integrate your character to it. Make your story a good one. No matter where life takes you, go for the happy ending.

 

Just keep at it! Even if you relapse after 5 days you can still see that as a victory as you made it to 5 days!

It helps to find activities to keep you busy... Join a sports club/gym, visit the library, take up yoga, cooking classes, etc, anything to keep you busy!

We can make it together Chris!

All the best
Richard

 

What you are experiencing is the chaser effect, we all go through it. Don't worry, you can be it

 

thanks for sharing this shadow

 

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