I am gonna hit the 30 day mark

Guys,

I have tried NoFap in 2018, i had a 42 day streak, sadly lost the it and it took me almost an year to reconsider NoFap.

I am 27 now, i have been PMOing all throughout my teenage, my college days. That is best days of my life wasted in front of a computer screen only to feel empty and socially awkward in the end.

Right now, I am living a mediocre life, there are kind of many problems within my family, that has kept me away from them. The only family I talk to is my own little sister. I am currently working in a low paying job that is sucking the soul out of me. I am living in a tight budget, there are no unnecessary shopping, I even think twice before buying myself a meal. I have reached the lowest point in my life emotionally, financially, socially, physically and mentally.

Although I stopped watching porn months ago, but I have M to P gifs whenever I have felt strong urges. But for the past 4-5 weeks I have completely abstained from P.

I have been having six day streaks ever since. It is usually by the end of 6-7 days I feel so full, the body kind of heats up, slight pain and discomfort in the lower abdomen. I did not watch P, but I had to rub one out in the shower. The first two times it was compulsion, the third time it was conscious choice. I think I am able to have certain degree of control over the problem.

But ever since I have reduced M, I have noticed some changes. The most notable change is that people actually notice me now. When I go into a restaurant or one of my clients office, I feel like people actually look at me. I mean, it is not something great but I do not feel like a ghost any more. Other things I have experienced is that long lost contacts started messaging me, just out of no where. My school time friend, whom I had no contact with for over 6 years called me up and wanted me to come over to his place for a small get-together. Although I could not make it there, my friends actually called me after and said they missed me. These are major motivations I have experienced past few weeks.

I will try to document my progress and experiences here. I think it is high time that I kick this habit. I am taking baby steps, setting small achievable targets and ticking them off. I have to let go of compulsive M-ing. That is next step forward for me.

 

Thanks a lot for the replies..!!