Addicted and tired of it.

Hi,

Im Ry. I'm a 22 year old youth pastor/missionary and Ive been hooked to P since I was in 7th grade. Ive been told I am so many things and that I will do great things, etc etc. But I have only ever called myself a P addict. I have masturbated nearly every day for who knows how long. There are several 4 - 5 day stretches without masturbating, but I'll edge the whole time. Im married. Im supposed to lead students struggling with the same thing, but I have never really experienced freedom, and Ive only told 5 people about my addiction, but I always played it off as though I was past it and P wasn't a problem any more. This addiction has made me lie and sneak for years. I am sick of it. I want victory. I want to see women as people with hearts and minds, not for their bodies. Im here to change. Help me out, huh?