Sick and tired of being sick and tired.

I'm going to start by counting my blessings....not here but in my own mind ,and I'm going to write them down, so much more definitive.
Just being here today gives me hope. I have been very successful in most all areas of my life but would have been even so much more, had I been in control instead of being controlled.
I am a retired... Christian , man with some hideous dark secrets, thankfully I've committed no crime. I'm in my early 60's and this has hounded me since my early teens.
Literally thousands of times I have " Quit Porn". Never taken this approach before. I found this site today....referred to on YouTube when I searched for Porn causes ED. You praying types ...pray for me.
Any and all encouragement is appreciated. Thanks ....LM

 

Thanks to all you guys for your support.

The main reason I envision success this time around is multifaceted.
For the first time in my adult life I have a companion by my side, my new wife.
I have for my entire adult life desired to have this type of relationship, but it has eluded me. As a young man in my early 20's I made the absolute worst decision of my life. Resulting in a dysfunctional marriage for almost forty years.
My new wife is the most awesome blessing. The void in my life has been filled ....Thank the Lord. God bless each of you in your search for deliverance .LM

PS I promise to tell it like it is ...good or bad.

 

Morning guys....
This morning in the wee hours of the morning I woke up...... and I'm just lying there in bed .....and the thought crosses my mind. You know, I'm a piece of shit! I really am. Absolutely valueless. Then I think Of my God ...my creator and that he loved me so much, (this piece of crap) that he came to this earth and died for me! In his heart somehow He puts a great value on ME! Jesus I thank you for your love . It fills my heart, it makes me have a reason for not "doing" porn. You give me reason for living a life that has integrity.
Isaiah 26;3 I will keep him in perfect peace who's mind is stayed on the, because he trust in the.
Have a good day my fellow POS's. Just remember how much God loves you! HE is my reason I ............................... (fill in the blank). LM

 

Still on the wagon.

 

It is of God's mercies that we are not consumed. His love and compassion fail not.
Still on the wagon. Have a blessed day.