No direction, no goals, numb...

Gawd...I wish I could talk to you in person

I see where you're coming from and I know from experience that these low places really exist.

Man I feel for you brah.

It's fucking hard I know, but we have to take it day by day man.
I also relapsed yesterday, but I'm determined to make this new streak last.
You have to get back up, because you already know there's nothing down there.

It's ultimately the process not the end goal that makes us stronger.
Even if I'm never free of PMO until I die, I'll partake in NoFap each time I fall.
So start again with me, and I will pray for you.

 

Thinking of you over here Chicks Dig Nofap. I can sympathise with your current situation. Many of us here have hit rock bottom before we can start thinking of how to crawl out.

I also feel it would be beneficial to speak to you in person. However, short of that- feel free to PM me if you're looking for accountability, or support in general. Also fine if you don't want to- though I think what you need right now is a big push to get you back on track. And people on nofap can provide you that push.

 

You are in my prayers tonight. Remember how much Jesus loves you, and he doesn't want you to despair - that is the enemy of life, more than fapping. Forgive yourself - pride says "I have done so much wrong." Humility says "I'm surprised I didn't do worse." Get up, dust yourself off, and keep walking. Christ offers joy - not an end to suffering, but a path of healing, and real joy in happiness or sorrow. He doesn't give us the end itself, but a means to it. He will give you the grace, the willpower, the fortitude to quit - I think too this site is a huge resources for us who struggle, and one of those graces. Christ will give us our side of the bargain to hold up, but we have to trust completely that the strength to win this battle comes from Him. You are made to be great, don't accept anything less. I'm with you - don't believe any lie of satan or the world or from yourself - YOU ARE worth it. YOU are loved. And we can beat this together.

 

Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall.

 

Chicks Dig Nofap I am still in the pit you are in now and I completely relate with your situation. I wanted to be dead these last few days and I had to watch myself as I was drained of the enthusiasm, clarity and peace of mind, energy...etc that I gained without the constraints of PMO on my previous streaks. Let's crawl out of this together, you, me, and the other fapstronauts who are in their first week. Love the challenge and accept the misery. With an " I AM READY" attitude you will be able to put all this negativity in their place. Remember also that in the first 3 days, every hour counts so you must be ready for the urges when they come. Develop new techniques to kill or prevent urges too. You are the master of yourself. LET'S DO THIS!

 

Having that feeling of nothing is hard to overcome. I've had it for a long time. But making the most of your life seems to be the best way to erase it. Good luck mate, feel free to pm me, ask questions, anything.

 

Praying for you, bro.

 

I know how you feel, I know what rock bottom means.

This a journey. All of us will stumble and fall. Accept it as a blessing. Good can come from suffering. This is a reason for hope!

Know that you won't always feel this way. There will be better days!

 

Thoughts are with you, man. I don't pray usually but have just said a prayer for you. Hope things get better soon.

 

This mood will pass dude.

You will pull through it and have gained the experience of a relapse.
Your post has helped me as I know if I relapse I will have the same experience and I really don't want it.
My prayers are with you. One day at a time you will regain your strength and peace of mind. Stick with it.

 

Get back on that horse man!Forget about your past,that means nothing.What matters now is the present.Check out this video,hopefully this might help https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2vj-ZmYTGAw

 

As I post this, you're 1 hour away from 3 days. Great job guy. Keep going. Know that you have a God that cares about you, and is always there when you need strength. Also, you have support here in this community. We're here when you need to chat or when you have urges.

 

Keep at it man!

Also don't be so hard on yourself - if you're trying to give up Fap and smoking at the same time it's going to make it double difficult! I've found that changing things slowly, through small successes always works much better...

Good luck!

 

My mother as I always said and as you say "killed herself" with the smoking and the lung cancer.
My father quit about 40 years ago, he is in his 80's. After a few weeks it never bothered him again.
The material unit had quit but she had stressors which made her start again. My father started in his early 20's so he could get work breaks with the other ompa lompas [1950's] so when he quit he had no underlying issues to actually make him smoke.

I am guessing that smoking will be very hard for you to quit. It is probably some sort of way to gain control of something in your life. You might need to figure out what that is or you will be in a world of suck trying to quit. OTOH maybe the nofap thing might be helpful in that regard.