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Deleted all my porn

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by WarriorOfStrong, Mar 31, 2015.

  1. WarriorOfStrong

    WarriorOfStrong Fapstronaut

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    Found out about NoFap back in Dec,was never addicted to Porn really,but every weekend I would surf those sites ,the whole routine,never had problem with girls either,I am sort of traditional and prefer to live a pure life ,but a man's gotta do what a man's gotta do so i tried to keep things in check.
    Everyone has a reason to join this and mine was DHT,I found out that DHT causes hair loss and believe me ,I love my hair,somehow I bumped into somebody's video of his nofap experience and thank you YOUTUBE and those guys ,I mean I didn't knew nofap was a thing but even in my teens I tried abstaining from porn and masturbation ,it was really in phases,like a clean phase and then a not so clean phase,but in 2013 I felt its harmless and life is to be enjoyed so I kept doing it without keeping a check whenever I wanted to,it continued till 2014 but I realized my hairs weren't like they were the past year,maybe it's cause I started working and shfed to new place ,so I came to know about DHT from internet,it is released after masturbation and causes hairfall and for the love of my hairs I wanted to give this a try ,never really challenged myself to anything but hoped to go long.Used to visit this site from time to time.
    First Time-40+ days streak
    So here's what I noticed since I started it in DEC,
    I felt my hair fall was reduced,it made me feel good,then knowing I am living a pure life made me feel better from inside,then about two weeks later faced nocturnal emission,man I thought that was a relapse,like everything is lost now,so I went to see the video which got me started and he told he had some emissions too,i mean that day ,one tab had the nofap video and the other had porn and i was this close,but I chose not to and to continue,about two weeks later had another one,but I didn't thought of it to be relapse,even though wet dreams are like the Dementors of harry Potter series,they bring you down ,make you feel irritated and most of all ,you want to start it again from tomorrow so you can do it now and get it out of your system.But the good thing is usually we have no control over it but i've had some dreams where I had control,like I decided not to and that made me happy next day so that was a plus.Don't remember watching any porn or pics either.
    jan 25,2015.had some bhaang(marijuana shakes),it was a bot too much and I felt jerking off would take the edge off ,it wasn't a trip I'd like to have again,the next day I jerked off about 4-5 times,man that good feeling that was there prior to jerking off was gone...so I started again,cause I still loved my hairs.
    Second time-60+ days streak
    This time it was different,I was more horny I guess,I was also free from work so that could have been the reason,had more thoughts about jerking off,sex,women,etc.Had more emissions,in comparatively shorter intervals.Emissions make you think you lost it,but I continued fighting afterall it wasn't about addiction,it was about DHT and the least ,the better .Also watched pornstars twitter pics this time most of the days.Yesterday was tough,I mean I had a good run,maybe I should do it and then continue again type thoughts,even downloaded porn and watched it but somehow resisted the urge.
    Today I woke up,I was alone but I soon tried to keep my mind on other things,I don't want to feel guilty,started working on my projects ,thought I conquered the urge ,but then came night,I was alone and I had porn,so I started watching it,and the streak was over .But you know what ,after I was done with the cleaning I applauded myself ,it was a good run,and maybe it is because of NoFap that I am seeing the positive side of things.I have given myself this week to be "free" and then I will start again,hopefully there will be no pics,thoughts or emissions .
    I thought it would be better to have people to talk to .....
     
  2. Samwise_Gamgee

    Samwise_Gamgee Fapstronaut

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    Good thing that you see the sunny side of this! I just started out a few days ago, so don't expect to much form my side in terms of advice or anything. I too have the ability to lucid dream, it helped me a lot in my younger years in which I suffered from a severe phobia for dogs and had nightly nightmares. Now I can do such awesome things in my dreams, like flying and having all other sorts of superhero abilities :D!

    I also am not really addicted to porn, but I reckon that this will be a good thing for me although it won't be easy. I hope this will get me more in touch with my primal side and that it will spark more life energy and motivation in my life. I'm combining this with getting into the habit of a good restorative sleep pattern and the habit of beginning with sports once again (dumbbell exercises for now).

    Greetings from The Shire!
     
  3. Cute Hipster

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    and also dlet all porn from your brain too
     
  4. WarriorOfStrong

    WarriorOfStrong Fapstronaut

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    I can't always have control , sometimes I can but my dreams are vivid ,like I was there....and yes I am planning on either doing cardio or playing sports ,put my energy there ,maybe meditation
     
  5. WarriorOfStrong

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    I did but then there's wet dreams ,and staying at a college friends apartment where he was living with his juniors who were proudly telling tales of their manhood and visits to whorehouse ,but I continued ,I hope this time I'll be better cutehipster
     
  6. Cute Hipster

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    Wet Dreams Are Normal i am on day 47 Today of noPOM i Got 2 Wet Dreams.. its Normal to Have.. But make sure you can Prevent wet Dreams Its just Slow Reboot
     
  7. WarriorOfStrong

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    I mean I can't always take a cold shower but I do whatever I can......Exercise might help i guess
     

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