High Ideals, life threatening tendencies. I need support.

Hey Everyone

I call myself the ShwingBreathMan here. I am passionate about the power of breath and energy. Coupled with a pretty fucked up childhood and early Victoria secret/video(porn, masturbation, orgasm) addiction that carried into my 20s and early 30s I am now battling the tendency to look at porn and masturbate as a way to relieve stress and relax myself or to avoid pain and discomfort. the cost is that I lose my power and creative juices and I lose a peace of mind in my heart that is hard to explain, its like heroine for me, but It doesn't nurture intimacy in my partnership, and it doesn't nurture longevity, it doesn't fit in the vision of the man I am becoming. I know I'm not alone and I need to feel connected to men in recovery. men recovering the sanctity and power of their sexuality and creative powers. I want to serve, and provide for a family and I need help to become a healthy man. I think this online community may help me.

Im new here but I am really excited to make connections and to get support and make recovery a fun and profitable process and I look forward to sharing my progress with you ! I need fellowship and community. Pulls me out of shame and isolation, where the addiction was born when I was in my early teenage years.

Now its shoes that don't fit anymore and I need help to get my new shoes!!!!
My new shoes are The Hermes Fire Flyers. Fun metaphor! And I am trying to get them and have them forever. With community of people who share plight wound and desire for support and growth as healthy community members, as men on earth I aim to acquire them and serve man, and earth towards a more unified vision of paradise on earth.