Wholesome Nostalgia is fueling me.

Well that was an unexpected headline to write.

So here's the story, a while back I decided to stop looking at porn. That worked for like 2-3 days. Then all went downhill for 2 days straight. But then something unexpected happened. As I was wasting time on the internet I suddenly decided to listen to the theme song of a video-game franchise I used to play when I was like 11-12 years old. This game franchise was Mega-man Star Force.

Now, I really liked these games. That's what I though. But I hadn't thought about them in years and then as I started listening to the theme song...it was as if 12 year old me materialized right in front of me and then proceeded to dropkick me in the face! I didn't just like these games. I loved them! So many fond memories of me playing them just came back to me...how did I forget these games!?!?

But there was one specific thing that I remember enjoying a lot when I played them as a kid. And that was, the relationship between the main protagonist Geo Stelar and the deuteragonist(2nd most important character) Sonia Strumm. Now as far as romance goes, this franchise has as much as you would expect from a game with an E for everyone rating, which was very minimal with the characters never really directly admitting anything. But it didn't matter to me when I was younger. I loved it. (And I'm pretty sure I had a crush on Sonia lol).

So there I stood, listening to the theme song of the games.(Which are amazing btw I fully recommend listening to them, specifically the version from the 2nd game.) And I was absolutely destroyed by the nostalgia...so I found out it had an anime and decided to watch all 76 episodes in total of both first and second seasons. Honestly, the games were way better. But I did really enjoy the episodes that were focused on Geo & Sonia fighting alongside one another and just interacting. It was quite wholesome.

And so during this time I didn't even feel like looking at porn or hentai or any of that. Anytime those thoughts even came to mind I just thought of the Megaman Starforce theme and the wholesomeness of the two characters I mentioned and it would instantly bring me back to when I was a kid. I was so inspired during this week that I've even been drawing a lot and finally learned how to draw digitally.

And now I find myself with an 11 day streak. The best streak I've had since May of last year. And it feels so good! I've been very productive in this past week and even managed to go the Gym every day I was supposed to.

Not only that, but I also remembered just how much I love wholesome shit in general. It was these kind of games and anime that inspired me to create my own stories. There was a time were I would go to bed and I would spend an hour or so just crafting these narratives in my mind of these characters going on adventures. I want to go back to that. I want to make 12 year old me proud.

So yeah...this is what's been going on with me for the past 11 days. Now unfortunately there's no telling just how long this mentality will continue. And before I started writing this I felt a bit of an urge, but it died as soon as I started listening to the Star Force theme. So hopefully I can stay in control for much longer. Maybe I'll look up some other nostalgia inducing game from my past and see how that turns out? lol

Wish me luck!