Beyond 90 Days

So the night before last I had another wet dream. My third I think since starting NoFap. The other two have left me feeling a little bit drained and tired for the two days afterwards, but not this one! Yesterday I felt amazing, had a really productive day at work and then hit the books afterwards, didn't even think about putting on netflix. Then slept well last night and this morning had a monster weight session at the gym too. Today I've been in the library all day studying, have felt pretty clear minded and focused. So I guess I'm at a point in my recovery where wet dreams are no longer bad. It wasn't even connected to a sexual dream, it was kind of non sexual actually. Felt the briefest twinge of pleasure, but I wouldn't even call it a proper orgasm to be honest. I know that wet dreams are a topic that greatly divide Fapstronauts. I had my first one at around the 60 day mark, and at the time I was just coming out of a flatline, it seemed to kick me right back into one for a few days, I felt quite shitty actually. Now however I feel fine, this wet dream didn't cause me any bad side effects whatsoever. Still waking up with a huge morning wood most mornings, which is a reassuring sign. Very few random erections though. Something that is strange is that I often get horny in the afternoons, and feel less so later on. Have any other guys noticed this? After I've had lunch, at maybe somewhere between 12 and 2 pm, I will just feel very horny, start thinking about girls I've slept with, and sometimes even get a semi. But then after about 3 or 4 this feeling dies down. I wonder, is this normal? Is it connected to having a load of food/carbs at lunchtime? Very interesting, that's to say the least. Thinking about letting myself have a cheat meal tonight, seeing as I've been good all week, hit the gym this morning and been at the library all day.

 

@Mahiii congrats on making it to 82 days man! That's awesome. Not long left to go until you hit 90 now. Glad to hear that you've noticed some benefits.

My strategy is always the same, do things that are good for your body and make you feel good without p or m. Lift weights, do yoga, eat clean, breathe. Enjoy all of the little things in life that you were to frazzled before to notice. Make time for yourself, pay attention to what it feels like to be comfortable in your own skin. Remember, you love yourself now. And when you love yourself, you don't let yourself do things that are bad for you. You want yourself to live well, to achieve great things and to flourish.

 

@CBAWSS It's weird recently I've noticed that my voice is much much deeper. And when I'm at the gym I can go for longer on the weights. Also, I don't know if its placebo or just because my confidence has increased, but people seem to treat me differently in all areas of life, with more respect, I feel socially magnetic in a way that I wasn't before. Anyone who walks this path comes to realize that the hype is real.

 

@RastkoV Thanks for reading and commenting. Speaking from my own personal experience, your dead dick is gonna do more than regrow. If you had told me this before I started doing NoFap I wouldn't have believe you but, and I'm not bragging here, since I properly got out of the flatline my dick is HUGE. Like bigger than its ever been before in my life. Way bigger than back when I was fapping it to p nonstop.

But it wasn't at first. As you've probably seen in my post, I was in a brutal flatline for three and a half months. During that time my cock has never been smaller. I'm talking tiny, shrivelled, no feeling whatsoever. I felt totally asexual. I was dating a couple of girls at the time, and it was near impossible to get it to become or stay erect. Even when they were playing with it, sucking on it, nothing. I managed to bang a few times and even then, the o was pretty much non-existent.

Fast forward to now. Been out of the flatline for over a month. It was gradual, but my cock grew and grew until now its bigger than its ever been. And I'm finally getting to the point now where I can get rock hard erections just thinking about times I've had sex in the past. Plus I have a huge morning wood every morning.

I don't know why this is, I havn't really been able to find any science behind it. My best guess is that ejaculating too much (more than once a day for over 10 years) is bad for your cock somehow. Mines never been healthier and more sensitive now. So please have faith. Your little man will come back to life, and when he does, he won't be so little no more.

 

116th day! Closing in on the 4 month mark now. Had my first date since starting this current streak today. No fireworks, but it went well. We had a nice time together, chatting over coffee, and I felt way less nervous than I used to while going on dates. She seemed nice, and I felt sexually attracted to her, which is good to know that all my systems are operating again after that nasty flatline a few months back. I feel like when the time comes to sleep with a girl, I will be ready. Whether or not I see this one again, time will tell, but I am talking to a few now and will hopefully have some more dates lined up in the next couple of weeks. I am still super busy with uni and a full time job, but feel ready to start dating again. And most importantly, I'm enjoying dating again, way less anxiety than I used to get when I started dating someone new. Still doing all of my good health habits, and trying to eat a bit more as well as I want to build a bit more muscle (measured myself the other day and I've gained about a stone in the last year, which is a really good sign. As I'm only at about 10 percent body fat, due to intermittent fasting, I feel that with another stone I would be JACKED. Still noticing all of the mental health benefits of NoFap regarding mood and mental focus, even with the occasional bit of summertime sadness. But hey, noone wants to be happy all the time right! Melancholy is a beautiful part of life, sometimes. Again, I don't know if this is because of NoFap, but I've noticed an improvement in my bodies response to heat and allergies. In years gone by, I struggle a lot during the summer months. I have hay fever, which normally goes crazy at around this time of year, and also don't do very well in the heat at all. This year, while I have still suffered with both a little bit, it feels far less than usual. I have felt consistently happier, sharper and more comfortable. Looking forward to continuing my journey into the coming autumn - it has always been my favorite season and I will have a lot more free time to enjoy my fap free life.

 

Sorry its been so long, I didn't want to write another post until I had some good news. And I do. Last night I had sex for the first time in nearly 5 months. I've been dating a couple of girls, but this one I really quite like. I was nervous about bringing her back to my place but when we got down to business everything was fine. Had a huge erection, no problems, and had the best damn O of my life. Didn't last a crazy amount of time but she was very satisfied. Had sex again this morning and I think I'll be seeing her again. I feel like I am really healed now. It feels good to be sexually active again. I know that those long months of flatline were all worth it. Feel a bit fuzzy headed today, not sure if that is from orgasming again after so long or if it is because of caffeine withdrawals (I stopped coffee last week and have been suffering some pretty bad withdrawal symptoms this last week). I'm so so grateful to be where I am on my NoFap journey and enjoying the benefits I have. I urge anyone else walking this path to keep going, it will change your life if you stick with it. Looking so forward to having a sex life again.

 

@lipfaster cheers buddy!

 

@realalphamale9124 Thanks man! I really feel like this is a culmination of the whole journey, the final test. There is no way I'm ever going back to fapping!

 

@porsche4life Thanks mate! I'm actually similar, I like the cold too! I usually struggle in summer with the heat, but this year hasn't been too bad. Glad that autumn is approaching though, its my fave.

 

@clapas Thanks for reading! I hope my story inspires others, NoFap really works, I'm convinced! No more PIED ever again!!

 

@majorfiddle23 Thanks bro, appreciated! Well done, you've smashed it! Nearly at the 90 day mark, what an achievement.