Anybody else a recovering drug addict on here too?

Issues with drinking... I get it.
I don't have much to add. Hopefully you find some comfort in knowing you're not entirely alone.

 

Alcohol and marijuana. Clean 10 months.
PMO, food, gambling and spending money. If it's not one thing, its another.

Addiction is addiction, no matter what we use. There is no such thing as moderation. It's all or nothing. I choose nothing.

 

I had a terrible gaming addiction when i was younger.
Got to the point where i was peeing in bottles instead of leaving the room.
Though my arena rating was about 30th in the world at the time on world of warcraft. so you know a huge amount of pride and shame attached to that one.
i still have to be careful the type of games i play now to make sure i dont fall off the deep end again.
Not the same as drugs sorry but addictive personalities all round here i think

 

Me. I had a big weed problem to the point I'd get sort of dope sick if I didn't smoke. Had an alcohol problem too. Took some hallucinogens once had a bad experience went into panic mode for weeks got on xans and other pills for about a year to help me calm down. Cold turkeyed off them without tapering and I've been fried ever since. About 4 years now I've been mentally gone. Cant smoke anymore either or do anything except beer. Everything else sends me into sick mode or trip/paranoid mode. Wish i had my life back. Don't do drugs kids

 

Had this happen to me when i was 18 but it still didnt stop me. I was primarily a drinker and weed smoker who tried acid, and acid screwed me up bigtime. I eventually picked up drinking again but not weed. When i quit drinking i picked up porn. Then i picked up weed again, then drinking. When i quit drinking and weed again i was fulltime porn. Its always something.
The cycle is neverending until we ask for help.

 

I'm done this time for good. I want my life and my quick wit intelligence back. Did you ever recover from the acid fully?

 

Yes and I completely agree with the wanting more after one fap. I’ve been addicted to alcohol, coke, crack cocaine, molly, and opiates etc. I’ve been sober from those for about two years now, but the PMO, that still lingers hardcore.

 

Yes. When i started drinking i was able to distract myself long enough to feel normal. Eventually it faded but It was unbearable in the beginning. Like writing with the hand i don't write with and feeling like everything is off balance and wrong, plus crippling anxiety that lasted over 1 year. Also i tried to convince myself that there with nothing wrong me but i felt so strongly that there was. That was pure hell. I recovered from it but i will never forget what it felt like.

 

Ugh, I finally won my war with opiates a short time before I quit porn. In short, no, you're not alone and yes you can beat this thing.

 

Did you have a bad trip or were just the after-effects bad?

 

The 'trip' itself was terrible. No noticeable effects other than the paralyzing fear of absolutely nothing and the feeling that everything was fake, and that something very bad was about to happen at any moment. Also had clouded thoughts, and body tremors, like having the chills but i wasn't cold. I remember a deep regret saying to myself over and over, "i could have avoided this nightmare, why did i do it". The after effects were similar, minus the acute freak-out. Foggy thinking, anxiety and phobias. I couldn't stop my brain from reliving the experience. It stayed with me and i was unbalanced for a considerable time afterward, to the point where discussing the events of that night would send me straight into a panic attack.

 

I’ve been an addict of quite a few things that I have proudly beaten (except PMO so far), and while I wouldn’t say I was addicted hardcore to it I, had a horrifically bad trip with skunk one time.

I used to use it once in a while for relaxing, as it helped a bit with me anxiety as at the time it was awful. The last time I got a batch I felt something was wrong after smoking, turns out from what the bloke I got it from at the time said it was possibly laced with what he believed was PCP from his dealer, bloody plonker. I was fucked up after that, the trip lasted at least 3 hours and it was a nightmare, I guess I was somewhat addicted as I relied on it too much as a crutch to numb my pain or frustration when I used it.

My anxiety issues increased after that and have stayed with me since, but the good thing that came out of it was I quit, I have no interest in drugs, and am naturally trying to better myself instead of relying on things to make me feel better or numb my sorrow. Glad everyone here is finding the help they need.