Whats up, guys! New here. My introduction.

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Hello, guys. Im a Brazilian, so i want to apologize about my english. I have 22 years old. I use the porn since i was 12 years old, and i remember like that happening today. I was a kid very timid and until that age i never haved friends before. I suffer so much, and Every day i was violented on High Schooll, sexual e physical.
So i begin to touch myself and i cant stop anymore. I know the PUA, and my Life has changed, but all what i did was search atention and aprovation from other people and i see my Life falling like water. I used drugs, and stayed for days on a room masturbating myself. I entered on bus and placed my members for out. Its turned to be a sick. A lived on tua streets on Rio de Janeiro.
Now i stop with the drugs, have 1 year. And i tried everything on my Life to chance my Life.
My Life is chanching, i finished my High School, and now im studying on a university. I living on the most wonderful place of the Rio de Janeiro, and i have womans who like my PUA tecniches. I dont know who i am, i feel like that weak kid from before hided on a mask of the PUA. I want Energy to produce in my life. I wanna realize my dreams.
If my Life changed so much stoping with my adiction with the drugs, imagine if stop with the adiction with fap, what take out all my energies and the most powerfull characters from myself. Thanks for the chance, guys! Today is my first day and im sure this forum gonna help me.