35 and Older Accountability Group

Thanks to everyone who replied to my post at ghe beginning of the week. It helps to hear from others that there are ways to navigate this no matter how bad a week you might be having.


Checking in... much better week and I’m managing my stress now.

I am trying out a handful of CBT apps to see which one I like. These are like little pocket therapists that log your stressful thoughts and help you deconstruct them with goal of changing behaviors. We’ll see if these make a difference ... I really struggle around days 12-15. Let’s see if these apps can help me move to another level in my reboot.

Taking it up a notch!

 

10 days gone by and I feel pretty strong. Some of those 10 days were easy due to being out of town with no time to myself (funny how it's no big deal when it's not an option), but some of them took some strength so even though I haven't made it far on this streak, I've showed myself I've got some strength.

 

Thanks for sharing. 140 days is no joke. Keep going strong!

 

Checking in for Wednesday and Thursday. No urges at the mo.

 

Checking in !

 

Checking in clean on day 3. One day at a time fellas.

 

Day 76.
God has really helped me in all this time.
I also noticed that there are some factors that help recovery:

• acceptance
• comprehension
• sincerity, honesty
• encouragement and recognition
• fellowship

Thanks to all the NOFAP colleagues for your help!
See you!

 

Checking in. I've had a pretty good go this time around with minimal urges, but the last couple of days have been ROUGH. But...I am choosing to dwell on it from time to time. That's how the obsession starts, so gotta keep in check or we all know what happens then. Thankfully I have 3 hours of grass cutting when I get home from work...

 

Checking in. Came into my bedroom this Evening and find there is no Wi-Fi on the laptop. What a blessing!!!! God is good

 

Day 20. Milestone 2 achieved. The best part of today was putting a strikethrough through my 20 day milestone signature and changing the colour of the text to green, done and dusted, feeling a sense of achievement and thankful. Had a pretty good week except for Tuesday when I had a really bad day, I was dealing with some annoying people and the enemy saw it as an opportunity to prod me big time with frustration and negative thinking. I was lacking self control in terms of being careful of what I say and just going on a verbal and mental rant, also lacking wisdom. Apart from that there has been significant growth, I feel more mature and my mind is much clearer, confidence has gone up and thinking much more clearly. It's such a dark world being trapped in the enemy's pit of pmo/lies and destruction, the consequences for the sin are so destructive in numerous ways. Gods way is so much better.

I’m like a submarine descending and the pressure keeps building, the enemy looking for a weakness to sink me…a valve busts under pressure in another area of my life which needs tightening to stop the leak, so to speak. The frustration and negative thinking leak has been sealed for now and the pmo/aka lust of the flesh valve has been withstanding the pressure thanks be to God. My sub hull continues to maintain integrity for the pressure I am under as the Holy Spirit continues to guide me and reinforce and renew all the valves of my mind and make me more vigilant of possible attacks. The next 10-20 days will be a big test, getting to 40 days is not easy, I last experienced this back in January but I feel once the 40 days are down the pressure eases somewhat.

Hope you are all remaining strong,

Blessings.

 

Congratulations, jcforreal!!! You did really well and you should be Proud. I agree 100% with every word you say. Holy spirit lift you out of the dark spiral of negative thoughts. God give you strength! Amen

For my own part, I realise that I only became stronger by admitting I am too weak and I cannot do it without God’s help

I love the submarine analogy

 

Quick check in at the start of the day. I might be very tempted today to do PMO because:

1. I’m working from home ALL ALONE and from the computer all day and
2. It’s Friday. Fridays and Saturdays are high-risk days for me

I’m not being complacent in saying this, but my positive feelings are very high because a very good early start to the day. I had a driving lesson in the morning. Positive dopamine/cortisol in my brain, Even more fun than viewing P. Life is good. PMO bad. I will write this positive trend of positive thinking.

You are all in my prayers and I’m thinking about you too, and praying for you. God give you strength I hope that when I report in this evening I can have something positive to say too

 

Checking in. Ready to take it on today. Have a good one fellas.

 

Doing awesome @DriverPaul! Thanks for the prayers and right back at you!

 

Love how you focus on increments of time vs daunting 90. Congrats on day 20 and stay vigilant these next 10. Tanks are filling up and they will remind you, often. Good luck!!

 

Checking in today, had a lil bit semen leakage, guess my balls are full. Lil disappointing cuz it might of delayed any potential wet dream on its way. I had no sexual thoughts just went to the bathroom to do what we all do and like a teaspoon of it oozed out for no reason when I finish doing what I was doing. Either way, I have not PMO, this is my 25 day, so I am still feeling great guys and I am really enjoying this feeling. I feel like I was 15 again lol.

 

Checking in... Procrastinating today. Going to get back to work as procrastination can lead to worse things...

 

Hi Everybody Friday checkin
All in all, Can’t complain about this day.
All day work at home Was completed successfully without PMO.
A lot of work to do tomorrow. I’m gonna try to get some rest.
good night everyone

 

Relapsed on Thursday. Blaaah! Checking in on Sat.