Porn addiction

I’ve been addicted to porn and masterbating for over 10+ years and I used it to feel better about myself and medicate my depression and my emotions by using porn lesbian porn and it has really messed my life up I’m 29 now and I really hate myself iand when I’m down I masterbate to feel better but all it does is reall mess me up because I use it because I don’t want to hurt anymore mentally and emotionally hurt

 

I’m on day 3 of NoFap and I’m committed on quitting pmo and masterbating for good sometimes the temptation is really tough but I’m going to bet this habit for good some mornings are really hard

 

It is a real struggle it is really hard because I watch lesbian porn for so long every time I had a problem I turned to porn for comfort it is so damn hard but I know I got to stop this behavior because it turns me into a wild man and I don’t want this to control me anymore I know it’s going to be hard but I can do it

 

I don’t know what’s wrong with me I sometimes daydream or fantasize about pornstars women I don’t want to or just women in general and I don’t want to be that way but I sometimes do and I’m still on my NoFap but I do think about it like early this morning when I woke up I had morning wood and it was pretty tough I wanted to watch porn this morning but I remember why I started this and don’t do it and so far no wet dreams yet I’ve had them before and when that would happen that when I relapsed but I’m determined to kick pmo out of my life for good thanks for the support everybody

 

Like I hate having morning wood every morning it’s like so hard for me I think right now I’m in the withdrawals of porn addiction and it’s really hard because when I’m super horny I want to view porn buy deep down I know it will not help me that all it will do is hurt me more then I feel about myself I have watched porn so kind my body and my brain thinks it needs it to survive but really I don’t need this in my life

 

I never want to go back to porn or masterbating again I have got rid of SoCal media and I just watch action movies no rated r movies because that can cause a relapse or go to the gym because of women in leggings and yoga pants I can’t do that because I will start lusting after them or fantasies in my head so I’m taking this serious I’m not playing video games either all I got too fix now is my mind off porn the recovery is never over I’m never giving up my goal is 50+ days without Porn + masterbating my goal I want total freedom from porn it will no longer control me

 

Alert!!!!!!!!really attractive woman came in my job and I really want to watch porn like really bad but I know I don’t need too I’m doing so good on my recovery now hate how women use there bodies to get you I need some support I was thinking things I would do I don’t like it makes me feel dirty and I don’t need this now I’m not PMO never but these attracted women are trying to get to me