Here goes attempt 32891238

Thanks all for sharing your thoughts and the continued support.

Today has been another struggle, a real struggle. Not so much with the urges or temptation that occured yesterday but I have come down with an almighty sustained headache, irritated and lack of motivation with stuff I usually buzz for. Could it be the dreaded flatline. The girlfriend is back tomorrow after 2 weeks away and could really do with not being a moody bastard or an apparent lack of sex drive. hmmmm.

It is day 8 and it will be another successful day but new challenges have presented themselves and I am so wary and cautious of falling down. I've been here numerous times before in the past, yes it feels different, yes I have cautious optimism but that fear is back. In the last year that fear hasn't been there because although I may go a few days, maybe max a week it wouldn't be a real attempt. And if you haven't tried you can always justify it with ah well, i'll get after it next time. This time, if I fail when I am really trying it will suck and be hard to take.

I hope i'll feel a bit better tomorrow and force myself out for a run, some football and exercising weds and the girlfriend being back will be a win. Some stuff I read says it could be best to not have sex but i don't think thats an option.


Anyone tried to do this rebooting with a girlfriend with regular sex? Any ideas or advice is very appreciated.

Thanks

 

and yes it was a relapse dream, strange how common place they are on this forum. Is it the brain trying to get that dopamine? What is the cause of these dreams?

 

I M'd. The flatline caught me out, i tried to resist but sooner than later it was edging and then M. Not P but still. Very disappointing. The headache I spoke of yesterday still hasn't subsided and I'm convinced it is something to do with this.

I am going to take a few days off here but stay vigilant and with the GF returning should be easier. I might even address it with her and open up but that is always a tricky scenario.

I'll build up a streak again and be back in a few days once reflected on this. Good habits and some good prevention methods put in place to get to 9 days but truth is I felt myself falling and was hard to snap out of it.

Good luck to you all, one moment of gratification is not worth the good work done to rid yourself of this habit.