I sexualise everthing that I consume

You need to avoid any kind of porn. Most likely your brain is looking for novelty again and again. You are addicted to it.

 

You’re in desperate need of a reset.

Stop all PMO. Now. Delete anything that gives you access to porn. I would do a social media fast. I would even consider a technology fast if all media you consume is really your trigger.

Once you’ve removed all access to media, which seems to be your downfall, you need to spend some serious time with your thoughts, cleansing them of dirty thoughts. For the first bit of your reset I would surround yourself as much as possible. Spend lots of time in public and around family/ friends. This is going to help you avoid any situation that enables you to go back to your bad habits. Surround yourself with motivating people. Go explore your city. Take up a new hobby.

Another thing I need to address is your self harming. Self harming is a very large indication that you have many emotional imbalances inside of you. Doing a full reset will help your bodies emotions and hormones stabilize, but you’re going to need some extra help. Please go seek help from a trusted family member or a therapist. I don’t know enough information to help you fully, but both of those people will be able to help you in person.

In addition to quitting all of your bad habits, you need to replace them with good ones. Start meditating. The benefits of meditating are extremely strong and powerful. Start eating clean and exercising. You will feel fantastic by doing just these two things. You can actually trick your brain to get addicted to good habits instead of bad ones. There’s plenty of things you can do to help better yourself.

Stay strong brother. This website contains invaluable information that will help you in many ways. Do lots of research

 

Joining your local gym or martial arts arts club could also help keep your thoughts occupied away from porn.

Not to mention the benefits you will see with your body and confidence.