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I'm Back after a 3 year break

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by fatcatslim, Jul 25, 2019.

  1. fatcatslim

    fatcatslim Fapstronaut

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    I'm writing here for the first time in around 3 years.
    The fact that i have logged on and i'm putting my thoughts here tells me something.

    In some respects i feel like a new Fapstronaut, but i have some experience of the reboot procedure.
    Having not logged on for 3 years i think i'll have to go through my journal entries to see how i felt and what i wrote.
    Looking back through old calendars i can see i have had PMO free streaks of 74 days and 60 days so that gives me a lot of encouragement.

    Over the last 3 years i have completely given in to my addiction and have been in a cycle of usually daily PMO (sometimes twice a day).
    More recently, probably the last 9-12 months, the results i have been looking for have been harder to achieve.
    This in turn has led to severe frustration that the fix i have craved has not been forthcoming.
    I'm not sure if this is due to getting older, i'm 53 in November.
    It could be that i am desensitized to adult content.
    There is also the possibility that my penis is desensitized. This in turn makes the O part of PMO more difficult.
    Truth be told i think it is all of the above reasons.

    I had a bit of a light bulb moment last night watching a documentary Generation Porn.
    I completely related to a guy talking about his addiction and how it was putting his marriage at risk.
    While not the main or only reason, my own porn addiction did play a part in the breakup of my marriage.
    Acknowledging this will, i'm sure help me as i move forward.

    I'm not sure where i will go from here.
    I need to have a serious think about what i want and where i want my life to head.

    As a new Fapstronaut i am celebrating 24 hours PMO free

    A side note on my ability to do and to stick to things.
    On September 26th 2016 i started running everyday.
    Something that i have kept up with and as i head out for today's run i am at Day 1033.

    Fatcatslim :)
     
  2. fatcatslim

    fatcatslim Fapstronaut

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    Thanks for the welcome back.
    I really wish that i didn't have to come back but recognising that i needed to come back is a huge step:emoji_thumbsup:

    Onwards towards a new day:emoji_ok_hand:
     
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  3. mikewayne76

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    Welcome back. I too had a marriage break up because of my PMO addiction. My second marriage isn’t doing much better because I relapsed for two years until just a few days ago.
     
  4. fatcatslim

    fatcatslim Fapstronaut

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    I initially posted here on 25th July as i returned to the NoFap program for the first time in 3 years.
    Thanks to previous reboots, i have been able to get to today, Day 19 with out much in the way of drama.

    I think that i have been able to get to where i am today thanks to the lessons i have learnt from these previous reboots.

    This is the link to my current Journal .

    https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.p...-ready-for-reboot-4.62422/page-8#post-2190036

    I did think about starting a completely new one but in the end i decided to carry on from when my previous reboot had finished as my road to recovery hasn't happened.
    I just renamed the Journal.
    This journal starts on March 22nd and runs through to 7th July 2016 and includes a 60 day streak.
    Reading back through my thoughts and feelings for these 3.5 months will, i'm sure prove vital as i prepare to go further with my current streak.

    Hi there @mikewayne76 , very good to see that your counter has increased since you replied to my initial thread post here.
    Keep on with the good work that you are doing.

    One thing i have taken on board, advice that i have been given several times is to keep a daily journal.
    Even when you have nothing much to report, post a journal entry.
    This is especially true when you are having a bad day.
    Documenting thoughts and feelings in a journal will definitely help and is something that i have not always done.
    I also think that it is very important that you are brutally honest with yourself when you write your journal.
    When you come back to it at a later date, possibly after a relapse then you have very useful information to help you with future reboots.

    With that in mind i'm going to head on over to my journal and write today's entry.

    Onwards to a new day.
    Fatcatslim:)
     
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