can anyone help with that struggle ?

hi everyone


recently i have so many urges because i keep meeting things and people reminds me of the weak person i used to be or the past or how i getting older without getting married or im just wasting my time on learning Germany, i want to run form those thoughts those people cause it sucks for long time now and the only tool i know and i was using is pmo . its so hard on me recently i feel like im going to be more sad frustrated until either going to complete learning Germany or failing at doing that or fapeing again