35 and Older Accountability Group

Sunday check in.

Busy week last week and at least 3 more busy weeks ahead. When life goes all stressful, a very different PM circuit kicks in. I don’t care for porn but boy do I want to jerk off in some weird way. It’s a sort of of “self care” dopamine hit.

I crave it now. I have been doing a lot of wim hof breathing and push ups. That helps to a degree. Kids help too, as a motivator, but I feel like my body is trying to figure out how to trick me into M.

In short, I’m flatlining.

The plan is to observe myself during this curious time.

 

Hey. I'am still interested. Thank you.

 

@Timber I completely get what you are saying. Every once in a while, my brain will tell me I can mo, no p. Not going to happen. I know I might be ok the one or two times without p, then that's it. I know because I've tried it. And failed many times. I've had a high stress weekend too, and the urge is strong this morning.

 

Weird couple of weeks for me. After 60 days I stopped hardmode w no PMO and the wife and I rekindled our sex mode which is great but now I seem to think about having sex much more often than when I was doing hardmode. P isn’t an issue but definitely urges to MO which I’ve done once since. It’s been about 80 days since I started so overall I am very pleased w how things have turned out and how relationships have improved. I’m trying to find the right balance of doing the work to stay the course and not getting too engrossed or too passive.

 

About to round 60. Congrats to all, stay focused.

 

Monday check in. Back off holiday. Here is where the fun starts.

 

Monday checkin. It’s going to be a tough week since I’m back from holiday as well. Mentally trying to get myself ready for the rollercoaster

 

Yes, MO doesn’t work without P, not long term. I have learned that P and M must go, at least for me. As I am writing this, a part of me is really sad!

Good luck this week! Stay strong!

 

I’m really struggling. Reset and full on relapse...

I’ll be logging on daily to check in.

 

Stay strong @GottaBFree!

 

Congratulations! I like the concept "decrease and God increase".
I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. Galatians 2:20
Blessings!

 

Day 101 check-in. Some family troubles but still strong and stable! Thanks God.
Let's go on, one day at a time.
Thanks all for your inspiring stories!
Greetings!

 

Beautiful!!! Actually Your whole Testimony Absolutely blew me out of my seat. It’s I just want to re-read it and read it again. Congratulations!!!

God bless you @jcforreal

 

Check in Tuesday. All good today.

 

Checking in, all good. Tempted today, but resistance is strong.

 

Counter still at zero; but it’s still a start lol.

Trying to stay mindful of the changes I need to make. It’s been a tough few days where I’ve been questioning if I can do this or not. I think the answer is no without a higher power in my case. Im almost 41 and I’ve been trying to quit since like 12 years old.

Just going to worry about making it to tomorrow morning, pray, study a little, try not to ignore the issue, or get down about it.

The feeling of accountability does seem to help so I appreciate the group and I’ll be posting every day either way.