Rebooting Officially since 2014

Hey guys, haven't been on here since yes 2014 -- I have relapsed I don't know how many times but I have since decided to try once again but this time with something different in mind.

Over the Xmas and New Year break I was spending time with my family and one night with my dad I opened up to how i've been struggling with porn for basically the better part of almost 20 years now. He opened up and told me how this is honestly a problem for him as well and he wanted to try rebooting with me once he learned I have a blocker and I will be his accountability partner (on Covenant Eyes) so if he slips up somehow getting through the system and I as well, it will send him or myself emails of the others' activity to help accountability measures. Discovering the havoc and poison porn can do to us really opened up my eyes after discussing with him the facts on various sites anything from the impacts in relationships, self confidence, mental stability, and really the list can go on.

I am so sick of porn at this point that I am willing to do anything and opening up with a family member and having them open up with being able to relate to it personally as well gives really humbles you but also gave me motivation to help him out as well as truly try recovering from this.

Hope everyone else is having a deep personal conviction to recover from the strongholds of porn. I'll be chiming in letting everyone know my reboot journey through this. We basically started December 31st and I haven't personally seen any porn since a few days before that. Hope everyone has a truly successful year!

 

Thanks! I also want to add that I decided to quit social media (which for me in this case was really only Facebook) constantly using it every day, mindlessly scrolling -- just another version of porn in the sense that many of us do it unconsciously as if it is just another part of our day.

So ive been Facebook abstinent for 15 days now and feels really good actually, can focus more on more productive things to do with my time and lately my porn urges have been reduced quite a bit, even before my pledge for the reboot.

 

Update: Doing well since last post, 10 days PMO free and 3 weeks Facebook free. Definitely feeling withdrawals but keeping busy to replace those thoughts. Urges aren't very strong still, only slight. Still maintaining vigilance in this fight!

 

True, withdrawals are harmful but porn is infinitely more so, i'm glad i've realized this. I used to half ass too, honestly taken me seriously probably the better part of a decade to get serious. Never knew it was an issue, till it was.

 

How does it feel to be a year and a half PM free? Still get urges at that point even? Im curious for you "vets". You all are the ones we need to be paying attention to

 

Humbling to know someone whose abstained for so long yet still admits has a long way to go. Seems this may always be an issue for some of us, as we may never be able to truly let our guards down sadly. Thanks for sharing.

 

Thanks Big L, and keep on keepin on as well

 

Update since Jan 7, relapsed idk how many times, so just updated the counter since last relapse was Monday. But I think I finally have a handle on this. I hadn't covered all bases with internet blocking tools (covenant eyes) and just recently Detoxify for my Android phone. Covenant Eyes wasn't working properly and I kept finding ways to relapse and sabotage myself countless times since the beginning of the year. Well I finally got ALL bases taken care of so no matter how tempted I get, I literally cannot access porn now. Wanted to share the update and hope all is going well for my fellow fapstronauts, keep on keeping on...you know its the right thing to do!