Fetish came roaring back (100+ days)

it is okay, I've been through the same thing as you after breaking a streak, but only worse (because I also watched porn). The chaser effect is strong, as your mind might think you already ruined your streak so you might just fap and fap and fap all day. I've now gotten out of the loop and hope you will soon get out of this thing.

 

To some extent, yes. I've found that the key with fetishy type material is that you'll be into one thing, but once you get into another, the previous fetish will get backburnered and subside. If, at some point, you go back to the prior one, as you did, then it will be reactivated. So I think what I'd do is just focus on something else and hope the fetish will subside. It's always going to be there, just as when you stop smoking the memory of smoking is always there, but if it isn't your primary sexuality you can ignore it if you stay away from porn. This kind of accident may happen, but you'll know how to deal with it -- just delete and move on.

Again, I wouldn't worry about the fact that the fetish is there. If you focus on other things, it won't matter, and it would be hard to remove, though a psychologist could give you some CBT techniques to help suppress it.

 

Many addicts get into TS porn, its a very popular category in the tubes. Thats what happens naturally when "normal" porn becomes boring. I`d say keep on nofap, but this time be more discipline with yourself and dont sext with TSs.

 

Sounds like you should permanently delete that site and block the number.

Each relapse is a lesson. That seems to be the one for this one

 

I feel your pain man... on my previous streaks when i start to feel the benefits of recovery and my sexuality begins to return i always have let me guard down and relapsed. Know thy enemy, learn from your mistakes and buckle up again.

Another thing in regards to your fetishes, i feel the neural pathways that support our addiction, kinks and what not will always be there, they fade and disapear gradually but can always be triggered again, therefore be mindful of this and always be on alert and kill the thought before it develops and starts to get momentum.

 

One thing is for sure that you won't get back to it in a normal way. Like you did before your streak again and again without caring. It was a great advice though for others not to Fap. Just avoiding porn is not gonna work. Keep up man!! Your struggle is real.