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How far back did I set myself?

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Ashin_kusher, Aug 26, 2019.

  1. Ashin_kusher

    Ashin_kusher Fapstronaut

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    I would like to think this doesn't count as a full on relapse since I didn't watch P or do any touching. But to make a long story short I looked at some girls on tinder right before bed, and it got me kinda excited. I went to bed and tried to think about other things and not fantasize. But I was awake and laying in bed and ejaculated without touching in my pants like a WD. I am wondering how bad this is and if it's going to totally start me over.
    I know looking at that kinda stuff is bad but considering I didn't do pmo I am hoping this isn't a full on relapse.
    I should add that I was on day 96 when this happened and I hope this doesn't hinder my progress.
     
  2. DerSchütze

    DerSchütze Fapstronaut

    Well, you looked at P and got a dopamine rush from it. I would count that and reset your counter. It probably didn't set you back that far though, once in 96 days is great.
     
  3. Ashin_kusher

    Ashin_kusher Fapstronaut

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    Thanks. It sucks because I was just innocently using tinder, not trying to use it for p subs. Honestly the P I normally looked at was fetish type stuff so the fact that a girl in a bikini had me that worked up made me feel like my brain has fixed itself a little bit.
    It sucks that I ejaculated because I really wasn't trying to fantasize and was doing all I could to meditate and get my mind off those pictures.
    If it is a relapse, atleast it isn't a relapse on pornography and I didn't binge watch that stuff all night like before. I hope I can just keep pushing and use this as a lesson learned and not fall back into worse stuff.
     
  4. BreakingBenjamin

    BreakingBenjamin Fapstronaut

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    Dude its only tinder.. everyone is dressed there, why are you so hard on yourself? just take a step away from it.
     
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  5. safa61947

    safa61947 Fapstronaut

    I wouldn't consider this a relapse. Something very similar recently happened to me. You were in bed, sometimes you don't even know if you're awake or not and the penis does his "job".

    I think you're doing just great. But if you feel guilty about it, maybe a clean start might be good. Still, it's clear to me you didn't watch porn or PMO.
     
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