SO could leave at any time

Read these forums. Lots of good advice in the Rebooting in a Relationship section.
Get one or more APs and start checking in with them every day.
Do whatever it takes to cut yourself off from your access to P. Seriously -- whatever it takes.

Welcome to the fight of your life. I am cheering you on!

 

Welcome buddy! You gotta get clean bro. Plain and simple you did it before you gotta do it again. Get yourself to at least 30 days no pmo preferably 90 days and THEN start talking to your wife - I mean about pmo. Start exercising. 4-6 days a week. How old r you and your so? I’ve been on my streak for 80 days I feel like a machine! Lost 20 pounds and doing big numbers at gym weights all natural Testosterone of course not like 90 percent of the ‘pmo crew’ at the gym who are all on the gear...

 

Your age and how bad your pmo is is important since you may end up with a long flatline and you and your wife need to deal with it together but as long as you stay clean then you will have a great chance to have a new life for the whole family

 

We are here to support where we can! If you haven’t exercised then walking is the way to go if i is safe where you live or just walk on the treadmill a5 the gym

 

Aim for 10k steps per day but maybe start with a smaller goal initially

 

32! A lot of us are much older! Save this now and never look back!

 

I’d say you need to back up and give yourself grace.

Empathy and encouragement you will get from many here, but make sure you don’t complicate that help by beating yourself up and down.

You are setting a really high bar and maybe that’s how you feel or what is true. But I’d say you don’t know and cannot predict how you will respond to “do or die”. This isn’t a game it’s your life.

Think of it as a tree. Take it slow. Dig a deep ass hole. Water it everyday. Be self aware. Write out your triggers. Journal your feelings, events of the day. New daily activity as exercise was my key and I got several AP’s. I never ever ever thought I’d get free from sex addiction. I’m still fighting a war on multiple fronts.

Don’t freak out on how fast you are growing or not. Everyone is different. If you have no friends we are approachable online, many of us in the same sinking boat.

One thing I’d say, i had given up and when I found Nofap it gave me back my life. Still have other problems to deal with but I can see an exit.

 

Hey,

There is loads you can do and plenty of advice on here. I managed over a year clean and stopped counting the days but it snuck back in and now my marriage is once again balanced on a knife edge.

One of the best things to do is look at all the ways you used to access porn. Where were you, what device did you use (phone / tablet / computer) and then put barriers in place to help stop those pathways. Accountability software is good, getting rid of devices is better.

I started doing a daily conversation with my wife using the FANOS format which helped us talk about stuff and connect.

There's loads out there, good luck man, you got this.