I keep failing

I see where your coming from to a certain extent....

But why do you feel a relationship is a distraction.... rather than something empowering ...

If I was with the girl of my dreams, I would be so happy , so inspired , so over the moon,
I can't help but work harder, study harder, exercise faster etc..... Women have that effect on me.

 

That's good advice, Captain!

 

Don't give up. Remember you haven't chosen the easy way. Breaking free from porn addiction takes time and effort. For starters, your urge to look at NSFW pics should be your alarm. Remember to do something else when you get this urge (can be a lot of things, like visiting NoFap, for example ). Thinking you could beat the addiction this time doesn't mean you lied to yourself. It's only a mistake, and mistakes happen. It's like a false start. Good luck beating your addiction, man.

 

It is ok.
Ask yourself this question: " how is this addiction serving me?"
Addiction is nothing but a coping mechanism used by your smart brain.
So to solve the problem you have to heal yourself from early traumas.
Then you need to start a practice of loving and accepting yourself as you are.
Your inner voice should always be "i love myself and my life".
It takes practice and dedication but u will be able to quite for good in due time.

 

Running is excellent mate.
While running say ( not in your head but verbally) "i am a good boy. i deserve to be healthy. i love and accept myself as i am." over and over.
if you do that every day, the changes you will see will blow your mind in just few short months.
You have untapped potential - tear the lid off and be the man you were born to be.

 

Okay fair enough....

Well I hope you do head down the path of finding a beautiful woman who you can spend the rest of your life with, a woman who will fulfil you. And spend less time on the PC studying, where the source of all your PMO addictions comes from...

 

please let me know how you go.
Step # 2 : the project is you.

 

You're doing well after that reset, keep it going. Continue to be the the controller of your life. Your efforts are being rewarded even when you forget about them.

 

That's sadness... Don't wait to have a life! I know when I am out of balance, mentally, physically, socially, it makes it soooo much harder. Feeling good helps you not take that first peak. When you are down, or tired, or lonely, it's so hard not to seek that quick escape. Once you are in that mode, monkey brain will rule you. Don't lose hope! The fact that you are sharing here, and seeking help is awesome. I could never fully quit on my own, having someone to be honest and accountable to has made a huge difference for me. You want to quit, you will.