OCD and NoFap

Hi DanceToTheRadio,

This is my first message on the forum. I feel that I have to answer your question. For me OCD and PMO are linked. I had a OCD a few years ago and learned to handle it. Now I'm quite fine. What also was part of the deal was that i smoked weed once per week and it really didn't helped. But a year ago I realised that porn was maybe a bigger part of the problem. It makes your head fogged. What I have to mention is that my OCD was about sexual thoughts. But while I was treated for OCD nobody ever asked me if I looked porn. I think they should ask it and send the ones that do directly to this forum! I'm now abstaining from porn for more than three weeks, MO'ed once. I feel like my OCD won't have a chance to come back now, while before I felt like it wouldn't but it could. I wish I could give you more information but hope this helps you. A thread would be good, since talking about OCD was really import to find a solution.

 

I have also found i can think clearer and articulate myself more, my mind doesn't seem to be as busy and my general anxiety has lowered, hopefully this will increase the further i go. Hope this helps

 

Hey,

I'm so glad i found this thread. Let me explain my story briefly- I am 23. Last year I was very anxious about being a virgin so I hired hookers on 2 diff occasions but couldn't get hard either time (i feel like this was more to do with anxiety and the condom than PIED). Then I started developing HOCD thoughts and kept jacking off (sometimes to lesbian porn) to assure myself that I'm ok. About 15 days back, while trying to masturbate I was anxious and just couldn't get a boner. I tried again the same day and no luck.
I started doing research and stumbled upon YBOP and Nofap. I am now on 15 days of no PMO. I get morning erections but my overall libido is low. But more than that, I've started to develop obsessive thoughts and anxiety and depression about HOCD and my ED. It just doesnt stop. It's on my mind 95% of the time. Does it get better? I am really worried that this will cause some serious psychological issue in the future.
Let me know your thoughts, I am very worried!!

 

Bro it does get better!!! I cured 90% of my HOCD by doing NoFap and knowing that you are what you think you are and they are just thoughts! If they cause anxiety they are intrusive thoughts and not thoughts that you want! So if had been always heterossexual your entire life, you still are heterossexual! Don't worry!! I've been trought that and I know it is very fucked up!! Stay strong and continue NoFap and all this thoughts will fade away!! They are just thoughts, thoughts don't define you!! Stay good!

 

My OCD massively reduced when I first took NOFAP seriously. But it came back with force when I relapsed. From what I've read, porn knocks your prefrontal cortex out of whack – so you're forced to think with your amygdala; this is a nightmare for your OCD. The rational part of your brain can't "dismiss" the silly OCD thoughts.

 

I just want to vent out everything that is going on with me, I have started my nofap just 5 days ago.
I have been consuming porn since I was 10.
Whenever I was at holidays from my school I used to fap to models and porn.
Passing through the my school everything was okay, I knew I was straight and used to fal to women, wanted to pursue women and fuck them hard. But I was always anxious among girls and couldn't talk to them.
Amid that covid came and my masturbation habit increased and so was watching porn.
After that I went to a university and first year went well. But till this time I wasn't even enjoying porn but still I had nothing to do and falling feels good, I continued to fap.
I started to like this girl in university, we started dating though I was anxious and didn't want to tell her how I felt(I don't know why)
I want to tell that I went through a serious breakup her, and while in relationship I was not feeling good in my head.
We made out and had oral sex but still I was not feeling the way I used to feel when I watched porn and masturbated.
And this was the first time I thought I was gay.
And after 6 months of breakup, I continued to watch porn and masturbated every single day even thrice a day most of the times.
I am really depressed of all these gay thoughts. These gay thoughts sometimes make me feel aroused but anxious at the same time. I have thoughts of having it with a guy sucking my cock and I kissing him. It's like I want to be fapped by him.
I recently started nofap and I am on day 5, feeling like shit, depressed, anxious socially and emotionally.
I really don't know what is happening and what is it with me?
Am I gay? If not why these thoughts make be aroused?
Am I straight? Is itt hocd?
Whenever I try to tell my mind that you are straight, it denies it and says "do it with a gay, suck his cock".
What is it?
Guyzz please guide me

 

First off, I’m sorry to hear that you’re experiencing all that anguish, distress and torture. I feel you, if only nobody had to face these typa situations. I would never even wish it upon anyone evil, because it’s so agonizing.


I can understand how you’re feeling, and will say that (SOCD aka HOCD) is a btch… and that goes for any other Pure-o (mental) subtypes.

Reassurance seeking doesn’t help long term, especially with ocd, it always finds a way to confuse you, manipulate you, question you, dig it’s way deeper making the intrusive thoughts feel voluntary and like they’re real. It. Sometimes goes beyond intrusive thoughts and you can’t even trust what you’re feeling. It’s all part of the nervous system so they correlate anyways ie: Heart Rate, Groinal Response, unwanted arousal, false attractions.


I can’t decide for you, but what I can say is that all of it could have to do with pornography, hypersexuality, even sexual abuse, or experimenting if those are somethings you’ve done. For me in my case, I believe the majority of it has come from early childhood same-sex experiences up until I was 12, being introduced to hardcore porn at such a young age (8), hypersexual unhealthy situations as kid, escalation to extreme genres against one’s own natural values, desires, orientation. For example I stumbled onto shit that I wish I had never seen. Nothing illegal intentionally I hope. But some of it was so damaging that it made the OCD worse. Stay away from reddit nsfw subs, weird blogs, fetish sites, traps, femboy, transwoman, you know the fckery… Basically the common denominator in all of it is: Pornography… Cut it out and I guarantee you’ll feel better. I’m personally still healing and rehabilitating, it’s too early to see any major improvements yet, but there was one point I didnt view any pornography for over 1 year, and the intrusive thoughts did lessen i think, can’t really remember tbh. But I do remember is that they didn’t go away completely. They were still there, but I chose to not act on them, and to not let them define me in any way.


In my case, with every fiber of my heart, soul, and being, I know I’m a heterosexual man, and happily always will be. Regardless of what I’ve done in the past. You are not your thoughts, and you don’t have to be some of your actions either. At any moment you can choose a different response or perspective. You have the power to decide. You are a sovereign free being and that’s your divine right.


Wishing you the best

Side Note: While I haven’t been “professionally” diagnosed by anyone, I know I’ve been experiencing OCD all throughout this life. I’ve self diagnosed myself. From constant intrusive thoughts, to reassurance seeking, to mental compulsions and mental rituals, to having tics when I was a kid (snorting, throat noses, nasal noises, blinking eyes very fast and deeply, even moaning-like sounds at one point…yeah lol, having to get a certain amount of numbers on something, back in the day fearing that If i miss a shot in basketball that my mom will die, or that if I don’t get a goal my crush will never like me. If I’d miss I’d say it doesn’t count, and then when it would successfully go in, I’d say it counts.

I’ve had fears and distressing thoughts which implied that I didn’t get professionally diagnosed because what if it turns out I don’t have ocd. Pure-O or ocd in general i think is known as the doubting disease, so not surprised there. And those fears/concerns are voiced by many people before they were diagnosed .Even while writing that my heart’s beating so fast, and I’d rather die than believe that the intrusive thoughts/unwanted feelings are inherently mine.

I also have a very different perspective on many things due to many reasons (as we all do), and I truly believe that negative entities take part in many of these things, as well as other spiritual attachments, control mechanisms, for a myriad of purposes. Laugh at me if you want, doesn’t change that fact. A lot of people are influenced, manipulated and led astray without them even knowing it. I’m speaking from personal experience as well, no one is exempt from the “attacks” really.