[365-CHALLENGE] THE THREE HUNDRED AND SIXTY FIVE DAYS CHALLENGE !

The 2nd

Regaining my strength. I was so weak for the past two days. I feel a lot better today after also sleeping for a good 8 hours. I can't believe I was considering giving up. The journey to freedom continues!

 

Day 145

 

282

 

99/365

 

So, it hasn't exactly been 1 day since I last relapsed but.. I'm still resetting my counter to 1.

I've never been more confused in my life than over the last week. My now ex girlfriend who I'd been working things out with over the last 2 months after having not seen her for 8, came out to tell me after a fight that she's no longer in love with me and has been pretending the entire time we'd gotten back together.. I truthfully feel manipulated and worthless.
I really don't understand how someone could take on a romantic facade and execute it convincingly. I've never felt this manipulated in my life.

But I know now isn't the time to be broken, or weak. I have to be stronger than ever for myself now.

1/365

I'm going to fucking do this.

 

Day 101, first ever above 100 day streak. Almost lost it yesterday too, keto makes you go crazy for a bit

 

Im resetting. I didnt go to porn but i lookdd at pictures of some naked women. I also m'd a little bit but not fully. I still feel good and dont really believe it had much negative effect on me but its a step toward pmo. So its been 20 days since i pmo'd and im at day 0. Life is good one day at a time.

 

7 days. If one week is possible, one month is too.

 

Day 4

 

229

 

Day 9 Today was difficult

 

283

 

12 days done

 

The 3rd

Fully back on track. I feel great this morning! So it takes about three days for the mental fog to start to clear and for me to start thinking rationally once again.

 

I am in

 

18 days completed.

 

2/365

 

13 days done, just today, just today, just today...

 

Day 8. 7+1 = 8. It's the 1 that's important. That 1 day. Now, to do another 1.

 

check in thursday