[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

Day 7, and I am proud to say that. But still I am only at the beginning, I really don’t want to suffer anymore.

 

Checking in day 42!
Yesterday was full of urges but still I managed to get through it.

 

2/90 done!

 

Hey everyone Been away for a few days enjoying myself with no phone data and limited internet. Amazing how easy it is when you combine those things! haha
So, looks like I am up to 3 days, nearing the end of day 4. Lovely.
Hope everyone else is going strong!

 

5/90 feeling mental flatline, cant get anything done today, also its raining and I got a headache.

 

Okay, thanks. Maybe I should try that since the 90 days seems illusive for me.

 

Started Challenges Jan 25, 2019
Relapsed 8/223 Days
Longest streak ever 67 days (2015)
Longest streak since joining 51 days (2019)
Current Challenge 0/90 no PM
Day 69 of weight training
Day 3 No alcohol, caffeine and sugar
- just relapsed, fuck!
- I have been messing with porn subs for a few days and it always esculates
- I should have known better
- no cell phone in the bedroom from now on since it is too easy to just peek
- onward and upward brothers as I ain't quitting

 

check in thursday

 

Relapse. Fucking hate myself

 

That is not good self talk mate. You are obviously disappointed, but don't be too hard on yourself. TRY and stay positive and just keep trying. Sometimes it will be good, sometimes bad, but just keep moving forward and try and build on yourself and your progress each time

 

8/90

 

4 days done. Why am I still looking at screens! Maybe I need to go back on the road!

 

9 Days,
I had hoped my brain fog would clear up by now, or show some signs of improvement...
Think I felt stronger around the 3-4 days mark.
The urges are not too bad, but I am craving a bit of release though.

 

1 days no PMO. Had an 11 day streak.
0 days no junk food
1 days no alcohol. 1 14 day and one 12 day streak. 1 9 day streak.
65 days no posts on Facebook.
Prayed my chaplet of Divine Mercy.
Prayed my litanies.
Daily consecration
Czestochowa prayer card.
Talks with God and Mary.

Was reading about PMO's effect on androgen receptors. The receptorsfor testosterone. It seams that PMO kills them. So for all these years my body has not been able to use testosterone. I guess it takes 90 days for them to fully come back. Hence the 90 day reboot. I have been killing my androgen receptors for the last 27 years. My life seams to make sense now. I can't do this to myself anymore. I just can't. I don't want porn anymore. I want the energy to do everything God wants me to. I want to become the man I was made to be. I need testosterone for that and my body can't use it if I act out. Please Lord, deliver me.

 

Day 5

 

Day 3

 

day 0 , check in friday!

 

Day 1 / 90

 

Day 3 done. Went to my first SAA meeting today and was super helpful.

 

Day 6/90 Checking in.