Starting Today... My Story

Helloo All,

Since I was very young, I was very horny most of the time, and I was exploring different ways to stimulate myself, ejaculating too but with no semen since I was very young to produce it. When I got older, around 11 years old, I learnt how to masturbate from my mates at school. At first it was very pleasurable, with little to no regret after doing the deed, but as I got older, the problems started to occur. First was the hypocrisy; I was so religious in my life in general (I still am) and between my friends. No one would even imagine me watching porn or masturbating. I was doing it almost once a week. You could imagine how shit I would feel after I do it, especially with my two faced character. My social interactions got worse, I got suicidal thoughts at a young age, I was lonely and felt like shit most of the time. Fast forward to when I was 16 years old, this new girl came to our school, and boy did I fall in love with her. She was everything you would want in a girl (or at least I would); beautiful, smart, religious, practically everything. Because of my weird social nature, I did not know how to properly communicate with her except via chats and online messenger. We chatted almost every day.

Contrary to what you would expect at this point, I did not masturbate OR WATCH PORN FOR THE WHOLE YEAR SHE WAS AT MY SCHOOL. But as soon as she left, I relapsed. I always feel like shit whenever I do it, and since I went to study at uni away from my family, the tendency to PMO increased as I lived alone. The urges do not stop, and they are like feeling hunger towards food or thirst for water, and in some cases, even worse. From my rather long experience with this problem, I can say for sure one of the most important things is to NEVER STAY ALONE. NEVER. Always do something WITH SOMEONE ELSE. It is that important.

I believe there is a greener grass on the other side of this struggle. Their should be.

I am now almost 21 years old and I want to start my journey with all you beautiful people, and I pray that these words help someone that needs them. Please allow me to join your community.

Peace out,

SOLDIER MAN

I DID POST THIS IN THE PORN ADDICTION FORUM PREVIOUSLY BUT I just wanted to post it again

 

THANKS BRO I APPRECIATE IT <3

 

Thanks bro really appreciate it <3

 

Great Words Bearle!! Thank you