Where do I go from here? Psychological Issues

Well this is a hard question. I do not have a clear answer. But think of this like you made mistakes. Everybody makes mistakes and falls short of their ideal. Some confront the pain some practice a kind of self compassion. Some self forgiving. And PMO is not that big of a deal, it is easy to conflate it. Not that big in the sense that it is not murder, it is not cutting your veins, etc, so yeah. You could go therapy/ spiritual teachers of your choosing. So called negative emotion like guilt/ shame sadness anger is just as much part of life as succes comitment joy, etc. Normally, although most childhoods nowadays tend to be skewed you develop a posibility of containing all these feelings live them and with them. If not therapy helps, be it talk therapy body therapy herbs medicine etc. Even in Christian teaching where I was brought up, while masturbation was considered a bad thing, it was not considered a big deal. Young unmarried man subjected to daily sexual stimulation from images and women who dress atractively around him. So, again, do not treat PMO like some sort of grave thing like abusing children. Shame and guilt can help but neurotic exagerated forms are nothing but poison to the soul.

 

I have these thoughts with regards to a lot of choices I've made throughout life.
The answer I usually end up with is that I I hadn't done A I wouldn't have gotten to B. Instead I would've gotten to C. But I would've missed out on B.
So you wasted some good years on PMO. True. It's very bad stuff. But now that you're here, working hard on rebooting, you know that if you were to find out that someone you knew was wasting his life away by PMOing, you'd be able to help them. Had you never PMOed, never knowing the problems that came with it, you'd never have thought to help them, nor would you have been able to.

I've also learned from Nofap: becoming responsible for my actions and choices, putting in hard work for a worthy cause, and so forth.