This friend of mine

Hi peeps

I'm currently on day 13 of NoFap and for the last 2 days I've been feeling irritated and annoyed. I got some urges but managed them well. My problem is this particular friend that I used to have sex with. We've been Facetiming a bit and I find myself trying to make her undress. I believe this is not only because of breaking the habit but also because of the memories that I have about having sex with her and we used to do this stuff.Today we were talking at one point since this wasn't going where I wanted,I've disconnected the call went for a smoke then called her again. I kept feeling annoyed and irritated and ended up saying good night and disconnect. I also do this to test myself. These last couple days I've been craving for sex and I believe this is also the reason why I tried this.Now in terms of rewiring is this bad? Will it take longer to reap the benefits of NoFap? Am I " allowed " these type of behaviors because I'm withdrawing from masturbation? With or without girlfriend I used to masturbate at least 2 times a day.

PS : I had sex last weekend but didn't ejaculate. Not sure if this impacts as well at least on the first 30 days. I say 30 days because it seems to be extremely common here.

Cheers

 

Hey SKU_15.

Since I started I've been absorving all sorts of info on NoFap , reading success stories etc. I don't miss porn at all I've never had GB's downloaded. I can say that sometimes I'd watch a couple of minutes just to get me in the mood or especially about my favourite parts on a woman and that was it. I do and always had an immense sex drive and sometimes I kept relationships for the sake of having sex. I've came to the conclusion that this is a compulsive thing that I have to kick out so at least for the first 30 or 60 I'm shooting for a full hardmode. Would you say that I'm experiencing flatline ? I'm 33 btw.

I thought about calling her back to apologize about that but it's now late and I don't want to disturb her sleep. I'm also thinking about avoiding facetiming her in order to prevent this

 

Hey Igy

Thanks for your thoughts. I may have not explained myself correctly. Still kinda new in this lingo and trying to figure out what’s best for me. What I want definitely,1000%, surely, for all that’s holy is to abstain from PMO especially in times that I’d use to do it when feeling irritated stressed horny whatever. A day like yesterday let’s say. On the account of having sex last weekend it was test. I read about people having sex without ejaculating and I wanted to experience that to see how the feeling was first before trying to explore the concept deeper. I don’t think I have to reset the counter because I believe I’m on the right track. It was just these last 2 days that were shitty and I was perhaps looking for some sort of comfort. I never meant to pull it out and start busting the nut as a she undressed like I used to do in the past. I haven’t looked at porn since I started or checked girls and models instagrams and etc.