JOIN ME: The Start of Something Great

You have good points. I need to make meditation a regular part of my routine and I think I'm going to continue learning C# I'm not sure why I stopped learning it in the first place. Unfortunately as much as I love hiking/running there are no good trails/tracks around my house so I'll have to wait a little bit to get my N to go out more (but once I have my N I plan on hiking/running as often as I can) I know I could probably just run down the street, but I get weird anxiety when I do that alone and I'm not sure why...

 

Thankfully I'm down to like 5-10 minutes a relapse instead of sitting on porn sites for hours and I've got my habit a BIT under control (its better than multiple hours every single day) but I want it to be more under control so I'm up for a competition! Most days at the end of the month wins the joy of crushing the competition?

 

Day 1 here. I'm excited. Had a hell of a day but somehow it's ended better than ever. LET'S DO THIS!!

 

Yeah! made it through another day almost... Welcome arvand! you have the support of everyone here and you have to be held accountable for it. Seems to me that you are able to control your urges very well if you can get up to 3 months. And no moremorefapingever i accept your challenge!

 

i'm feeling really weak. I've been confined in my home for a long time and its about to rain. I have a headache coming on. My motivation level to do anything productive is very low.

 

I screwed up. I got home and I just was feeling like crap and had strong urges, so I went and did some digging in my backyard to relieve them, but it didn't work and when I came back inside I immediately went for the computer... on the bright side every relapse I find a new porn site or two to add to my Hosts file.

 

Never2L8 here. This is my very first post on the forums. I intend to begin a hard reboot challenge at midnight tonight (UK time), which is about 3 hours away. Wish me luck guys, or maybe I should say wish me STRENGTH? Will keep posting each day from now on (whatever happens). Meanwhile, best regards to everybody on the forums.

 

Welcome and good luck man!

 

I did, however, not realize I was three days in... I thought this was my first day without it which means that I just breezed through three days without even thinking about PMO...

 

I'm feeling pretty freaking hopeless guys... I think I'm fighting a losing battle... I have no willpower and no way of stopping myself its freaking impossible I think I see I do without any breaks to rethink what I'm doing and on the rare occasion I do take a second to think I just go "Nah" instantly without thought at all its like my brain is just going "SCREW YOURSELF SCREW YOURSELF SCREW YOURSELF" its maddening! I just don't know what to do anymore! I relapsed twice in one day for the first time in MONTHS today! Ughhhhh....

 

A live chat would really be a help. I think it can be a lifesaver to have instant support in times of temptation.

 

I was talking about languages like Spanish, German etc. but I guess C# is good to learn too. It would be useful for a career in programming I guess.

 

Blown it…literally!!!

Hey guys, it was going so well and then I fell ill and spent a few days off work on my own with my phone and laptop. My friend recently introduced me to an App for my phone (which sync with a website) which seemed innocuous but it had hidden depths and wasn't picked up by K9!! Whilst browsing I came across explicit images of women on this site….thought I could handle a bit of a look given my recent success…

Well how wrong can you be…basically had a 3 day multiple M to O binge and wiped out a lot of good work :-(

I need to get back on the horse but starting next week after a weekend of skiing and reflection in Chamonix.

Will reset counters when I begin again….

 

ahh mann.. Badgerio... don't let that discourage you at all. Get back on that Horse! i want to come close to what you've done so far. Set an example.

 

FIRST 24 HOURS of reboot, but I know I have a long way to go. There's one thing for sure, PMO leaves a vacuum that has to be filled by something else, ANYTHING else. I'm working on it.
BTW, it's just gone midnight here. Yay, I'm into the second day! Way to go!

 

Day 1 COMPLETE I'm feelin pretty good too! Just got back from being out all day and I'm makin myself some noodles and I'm gonna sit back and relax.

 

good progress

 

Day 2 complete, though I have to admit the old PMO devil has been lurking in the shadows a few times. Be gone, I've got bigger fish to fry now!

Completely off topic; any other Ubuntu/Linux users on the forums, would be great to hear from you.

 

A really brilliant talk on porn addiction:
http://theporneffect.com/blog/posts/my-recent-talk-to-men-on-porn-addiction

We are all in this together.

 

DAY 2 COMPLETE. Feelin pretty good about myself. Gonna restart my workout routine on Monday and get some more schoolwork done because the faster I'm done school the better and see where life takes me! NOW back to Skyrim!