What are the negatives of fapping for you?

What have you experienced as the negative side effects?
What are the positive effects of abstaining?

I could talk a lot in detail about the effects myself...But I'll try keep it short.
Negative? The biggest one? Is desensitization. I am going to be suppppppeeer honest here. Don't judge me... I am on the road to recovery.

I would wank so much that I would lose interest in women. And I would start to lean towards weird dark fetishes...like transwomen....ya...i know gross...I thought so too. And then I would feel incredible guilt and shame...It would be exciting while happening but then when I came...a surge and rush of guilt immediately after.. I tried to fight the guilt and shame..and rationalize it and justify it....Like "religion wants me to feel guilty" "love is love"(wanking to P is NOT LOVE) ...But really ... it's my heart, and God's heart telling me something is wrong here. I AM NOT bisexual! That's the thing. Our hypersexualized world made me think that I was! The more I live a healthy lifestyle and abstain from chokin the chicken and not watch porn the more my loving good old self comes back.

Btw...I barely ever watch porn anymore...in the last 8 months...prolly 6-7 times..I used to do that in one day..I hope it will go away all together someday soon...I'm working hard. Sometimes i fap...and if I do.....I will have NO ONE (not all the time...getting there though.) in my mind except jus pleasuring myself and enjoying the feeling of my own touch with thoughts of no one else. I still wonder if God approves of that? It doesn't seem like lust....But I do notice...If I do that, I will feel like coming back for seconds and then I will think of my ex girlfriend...(who btw drives me insane! but somehow love...dont get it)

So the positve effects of abstaining? for me? Perversion goes away! I've noticed so much more though! Thank God! I was so scared of what I was becoming. I feel more natural and balanced these days...I am patiently waiting for when my brain finally resets and it just becomes who I am...rather then a struggle! Will get their ladies and gentleman! we will!

I know my story is a little cray cray...But I was so sick! And I think honesty is the biggest thing needed to heal ourselves and others.

Today is Day 6 for me

Take care brothers and sisters
God Bless ya

 

I found this video on this site...It makes me feel so good to hear the young man mention EXACTLY what I have experienced...Looking forward to this movie.

 

I seen the first video..really good.

2nd one was new, started a lil slow but finished with some really strong points! thanks for sharing!