man vs himself or women?

I always struggle with the dating process, or women.

I was married for 10 years. I don't know if I want it again.

I want love and affection, and I want to give it.

But is this thing a "need"?

It seems like a relic from years past.

I spent many nights searching. Pursuing. Trying to attract.

What was I looking for out there?

Why wasn't what I had good enough?

Another person comes with as many liabilities as assets, experience has taught me.

I was divorced in Sept, 2017.

Two years, no new woman has emerged.

If I NEVER PURSUED a female, it would never happen.

Dating has no internal inertia, it only goes as far as I push it.

And I come back to the same stupid question all over again:

If I was TOTALLY, ABSOLUTELY 100% happy with my life,

would I want a gf, wife or women to date?

Obviously there must be problems if I even have to ask.

The physical love really has no benefit.

The experts who say that can't truly prove it.

Is there such a thing as an accurate control group, unsullied? No.

Therefore, I'm going to hold off for a while,

since the return on this project is foggy,

and the required effort to obtain it is equally an unknown quantity.

And if I'm an idiot or you agree, post up your thoughts.

 

No offense, my friend, but if you are never married before, how can you tell me that I should reconcile with my ex-wife?

I was trying to think of which of the thousand reasons was the strongest one to explain why it would never work.