I Want to change myself

Hello
I'm new here and I've become worried of my addiction to porn and masturbating, today on the day of my birthday i shall commence a challenge to last at least 30 days, usually i'll get about a week but today i will do the impossible. I will not try but do so to become a better person for me my friends and others around me. I will be recording logs whenever i can of my experiences. if anyone can share some advice that would be great full. Wish me luck.

Challenge Accepted. Barney Stinson: HIMYM

 

Thank you for the words of advice to have courage and believe in myself, I am now finishing my first night from adhering to P and i am hopeful for a bright future ahead of me. I only hope to be more social with people and better my relationships with others, Again thank you and good luck to you on your journey

 

I thought about explaining more about why i am on my way out of addiction from P. I became obsessed with P since i was 13 and when i enter high school last year i became gravely addicted to it. So much that i would often stare at girls butts all the time and stare at their breasts too. But now I'm 16 years old and I've been given the opportunity to meet someone who i think i can be in a committed relationship for the first time, now i want to change who i am and not look at a girl just for her body just because i am addicted to P. I feel that if i keep with my addiction i will become corrupt and my social life would deteriorate. I have been given a wonderful life, good friends, and a good family and i cannot let that go to waste because of my own selfish actions and to not loose the opportunity of a life time i hope that whoever reads this uses it as a beacon of hope to those who feel lost or desperate to change, i know i have.
Good luck to you all

 

DAY 1
It has been a day ever since i challenged my self yesterday and since then it has been going smoothly, before this I've tried to stop my addiction at the beginning of the year but fail because of my curiosity and fall over to the beginning, now i'm adhering myself from looking over pictures of something that may trigger my addiction. During the afternoon I've had a bad headache, i'm not sure if this is due to the challenge or because of my stress at school? usually i would also M to relive stress but instead i'm covering it with candy. I'm hoping that i can last this by the end of the week since at that time i will usually kick the bucket to watch P and M. But i'll stay strong.

 

Day 2
Ever since my detoxing I've been distracted mostly due to homework and studying for school. I still had some minor headaches but wasn't as bad as before.I hope that my symptoms of overlooking women's bodies will be over soon, i feel disappointed in my self for the way i act because i'm a good guy and never done anything demeaning, if this would continue it would affect my image and my relationships.. I want to thank everyone who viewed and replied my posts over these past two days, i can't believe that such a large community is this encouraging and helpful to those who are trying to resolve these issues, just know that you are helping someones life, so thank you. My logs will become less progressive since i'm trying to save time for school and studying, but i'll keep reading messages and keep up with whatever interesting i stumble upon in my journey.

 

Thanks, I'll take your advice into consideration, now that summer is coming i will have time to go to my local YMCA to exercise so i hope that will help me and my addiction.

 

Day 3
today i saw something that made me think of how much my adventure will give me. I was at my aunts birthday party and, usually, i would become secluded from all my family members and not talk that much, but this time i was around helping my aunt with whatever she needed, serving food, passing out plates and attending the guests. i think now my detoxing is giving some effect. Anyway i thought it was something of interest to share to you all, i think i might already be getting used to this, but i'll still be in alert.

 

Mission Status: Failed
yesterday i fell under the trap of my habits and Watched P and M. If it would have been without the P it would have been less disappointing. But i'm still not willing to give up, now that i know what i'm up against i can still get up.