A World Without Women?

I don't know how to feel about the subject of the thread.

I have mixed feelings because there were a lot of good times in the past.

But I'm divorced now, and I started streaking in 2018.

It's so easy for me to get a longer streak if I decide to avoid women.

Then I wonder, what am I doing this for?

I thought I was going NoFap for life improvement?

But if I improve my life enough, then I can become successful.

If I do that, I thought the end result was to get women?

It seems like circular reasoning.

I work hard to succeed to get a woman which is accomplished by avoiding women.

So then, I say, I must make more decisions independent of the reaction

by the female.

I can't, of course, NOT become successful if opportunity should avail.

But if I became successful, and a woman was interested in me, then is that good?

To be with her, I'd be abandoning the thing that got me here.

She then becomes a liability.

My process is destroyed, I am back to square one.

It seems stupid to go on a streak because "THEN I'll become successful

and women will want me!"

What kind of person is that anyway, who gloms on to another,

like a parasite because of the aura?

I can't settle this in my mind one way or 'tother....

 

Gee....uh....that was....uh....helpful?

 

I can see why you read it like that.

I guess I just question the whole process of rebooting if the end result is to get a woman.

Because needing a woman failed in the first place.

To cope, I was fapping into a destructive addiction.

So, why would I do all of this just to get a woman,

who leaves on a whim.

Then all the self-improvement mumbo jumbo was all for naught....