Longer term rebooters - PAWS?

Well you see quitting porn wont give you superpowers. Itll just make it so you're not composing which helps your HOCD

 

Yeah man just when you think everything starts to seem better, you get all your symptoms back and it sucks. It shouldn’t last too long and after awhile setbacks won’t set you back at all. Just stick with it and yeah man, could be a year+. Don’t look at it as a timer, but as just your new lifestyle. Don’t fap. It’s only for real sex and urinating. Your wiener shouldn’t be your hobby anyway. Stay strong while you ride out your symptoms-again.

 

I know and I thought that there is no way that I could relapse after such a long time. But this shit outplayed me, I used it to help me get through sympthoms that were caused by withdrawals. Never ending cycle. I didnt watch any porn luckily, but luring for Images that would somehow trigger me on social Media became too intensive. It all ended on 'just' MO but now I know I lost this one battle. Idk why but thinking about this in similar ways to yours, in terms of 'evil' that always tries to outsmart you is somehow helpful. Im trying to picture it as the evil I have to face and defeat if I want to life a happy life. Im no longer feeling angry or picture myself as a victim, but rather see it as my Penance that just have to be done.

 

Sometimes you just have to put your phone down. Even YouTube can trick you into kindling. We are in a delicate phase. This is not a good time to play with the devil. You will lose 10/10 times. Just go fry an egg and eat a piece of toast or something. Surrender brofessor

 

No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it. Corinthians. ......jus sayin

 

This is excellent. It is an addiction to the feeling the content being irrelevant. An important distinction. I think many of us suffer from minds ridden by abject fantasies etc etc. The truth is sex is sex. We've all been turned into consumers of sex based on novel displays of taboo and altered forms of sex. And now we are addicted to the feeling aroused by these ideas and fantasies not really the fantasies themselves. Because, really, in most cases, the fantasies are unrealistic and harmful. I think we all want happy content lives; lives where going and playing a sport or cooking a nice meal brings total bliss, rather than feeling like a chore. I'm sick and tired of living with an addiction-based perspective. It's totally warped how I've lived my life; I've constantly arranged my life to push through mundane tasks in order to allow for extreme forms of pleasure. Sure, I've been productive, but completely unfulfilled. I'm about 40 days in and I too believe I suffer from PAWS. Been battling nofap for 4 years now, on and off. Somehow this reboot is insanely difficult. Sever anxiety at night, etc etc. I'm taking buspar to cope. Things have calmed down but currently I'm having two bad days. I hope they pass. Last week was a good one!

 

Its me again, I ended up here because I wanted to share my recent experiences with somebody. If only people around me knew what Im going through...
Its been a while since last time I posted in this thread. During that time I had a lot of withdrawal issues and they all came and go. The best way I can describe my latest state is 'ups are really high and downs are really low'.
I totally cut out all activities related to pmo that I used to do everyday and I got rid of any fantasy that tried to sneak into my brain.
I started to pray and I really started to feel like its helping and it makes sense. Latest Kanye album inspired me and I discovered that he also recovered from sex addiction(said that in one of the interviews)
Lately Im feeling like never before-my mind seems to get stronger and heal, Im able to find motivation and to cut out the cravings. But the physical sympthoms are at their peak. Chest tightness, radiating to my neck and stomach sometimes, Lately also tightness in my nose/forehead. Feeling like my heart is not right, and I dont know if I call it properly but I also feel twinging all over my chest. These got really intense.
The worst thing is Im getting this basically all the time and when Im at work it increases and sometimes I feel like im gonna fucking die or Idk. But it always calms down as I get home. I can See the progress, but as far I go it gets as tough.

 

My brothers, I have read this whole thread and its GOLD. Thanks everyone for sharing such useful information and what we are all going through. I wish people could share more on this forum after they are healed. I am also going through PAWS for last 6 months and suffering hard. I have cured my PIED though, the reason for me starting the reboot journey. But PAWS have been a real bitch for me. At one point in time, I stopped caring and even forgot about my PIED and just wanted my PAWS to go away. Thankfully still though, I have recovered completely from PIED and things are perfect in bed. Battling PAWS now.

 

do you have libido though?

 

Yes

 

Holy shit guys Its been a crazy time. Finally, after almost 6 months I can say I feel like Im closing to an end of this.
I mean, some sympthoms are still there, they come and go but they are not even half as strong as before.
Im getting better and stronger every month, taking back the control... If somebody who needs that will read this:
Yes, it will pass.
No, it wont happen instantly.
It takes a lot of time, be patient, figure out what is helping you the most on your own.Learn your mind and its ways. Its a long, complicated, and tricky process. But you will get out of it.

 

It is indeed tricky as hell. Young people like us who started on high speed internet porn need at least a year or so to recover. I am still going through withdrawals nearing 300 days. Though I have recovered from PIED, ED, DE,,,,,all of that bull crap!!!!!!!! thankfully

 

Hi bro! Did you also had PIED? If so, how long did it take you to recover?

 

3 years of serious nofap with little relapses (say 5<) showed that this can last years but its effect will get decreased. I get some type of flatlines describing what you say but they usually last 1-2 days max. I dont do monk mode but i dont PM as i have sex with girlfriend which kinda sends me back to flatline but i think this is a part of the process. As for the super powers you get used to them sometime and you just dont mind them at all and becomes a part of yourself without knowing, as this is called tolerence

 

Im coming at exactly 18 months an unfortunately still suffering PAWS and had another relapse to sex (went on holiday, tinder and met 2 girls over the course of the week) I have had sex 3-4x in last week and MO to fantasy 3-4x. Brain is aching like crazy and porn induced sexual fantasies come back like they never left. It's been 2 years since I found out about nofap, and 18 months before I started getting proper streaks.

Hard to imagine ever being fully healed, by far the toughest thing I've ever done. I had gone 50 days monk mode before this latest relapse.

 

18 months hardmode???

 

18 months hardmode, with 3 relapses on 3 occasions; 1st was sex&PMO 1 relapse, 2nd was 1xsex + 5x MO, this last one 2xsex & 5xPMO

As previously stated I've had streaks of 7months+ monkmode, but there was periods in this 18months where it wasnt monk mode, and was talking to opposite sex, sometimes sexual dirty talk which no doubt set me back too

 

Hey brother, good for you to make it so far with such long streaks! Really happy for you being able to go on vacation and have sex with girls u meet

What are the PAWS you are still dealing with right now?

 

Going on vacation and having sex with random girls is a cancer to me, I was a porn and sex addict.

I have all the same symtoms but social anxiety, lack of sleep, and wierd wierd brain pressure 24/7 are the main ones. Got to admit even with these last relapses still feel better then I did at the beginning, but still not healed. Still also the craving for crazy porn style sex can come back so quick and so strong.

My favourite acitivty in the world is talking dirty with girls online, this im truly an addict, can spend days and days on tinder and sex sites