Almost 90 days!

Hi guys, I have been reading and trying without success for years, and finally...
Before starting with how nofap is greatly impacting my life, I wanna tell you:

On 27 september it will be my 90 days mark, and I will make an "Ask Me Anything" on my youtube channel.
So if after reading this post and watching the video, you'll have any question, make sure to follow me so you won't miss the live, because I will gladly answer live on camera to all your questions. And I hope I will have a positive impact on some of your lives.

If you prefer you can ask me questions even here, I'll try to answer, even if it will be more difficult for me cause I have so little free time.

How was my life before nofap?

I can't believe I have made it this far, after trying so many times and failing for over 3.5 years (during which I had only 3 steaks over 30 days), but this time everything is different and I knew it, because I had decided I was going to change my life, and live the life of my dream. A meaningful life.
The motivation is the key:

After my dear grandmother's death (which suffered very much) I realized that we need to love ourselves. So what was the first step?

My weakesses were:

- I was so needy and weak that people would laugh at me.
- My body was in a state of inflammation (my balls were about to disappear and my varicocele was big and it hurted a lot), not only because of fapping, but also because of lack of motivation that would make me eat shit, stay in the bed alone all day long for days and days.
- My sperm was completely transparent.
- My manliness was completely lost (many people were starting to say I looked gay).
- My body was soft and I had two soft tits (I was getting fat compared to my standards).
- And many other.

So, I wanted a great body, and I wanted to be charming like James Bond, but in order to do it I needed to be healthy.
So...

I decided: <<ok from now on I'll take this medication to eliminate my varicocele, and I will have to stop masturbating too, because it cannot heal if I am in this state of inflammation. It does not matter how long it may take, or how difficult it may be, I am doing it until when I am healed COMPLETELY!!!>>
<<And I want to be a real man, with a calm mind.>>
<<I want to produce the proper hormones a man should produce (more testosterone, less estrogens>>.
So I decided to go to the gym everyday, because I had to change not only my body, but even more important my mind. I had to learn to handle pressure, pain, and to become consistent as fuck.