More Productive NOT Doing NoFap?... Help?

Alright, so here's the thing.

I am a fan of the nofap lifestyle, I get it, I've been "addicted" for a large portion of my life and I just don't want to deal with the consequences or shame that come along with it anymore. However, When I do "relapse" every once in a while, I find that pretty much everytime I do so, I am much more productive and focused than when I was actually on Nofap. I will say this, I feel more social on Nofap, but I mean does that really mean anything when you have no interest in a relationship atm?

Like, I don't know what to do.

Why do I feel more productive after relapse?

Maybe it's just me feeling that I just did a really shi**y thing and now I want to make up for it? Or maybe I'm just more relaxed after the fact? I have no idea. But it seems that the longer the streak, the more I procrastinate. But as soon as I give in, I'm much more willing to get what I have to get done. It's very complicated, I know, but I am looking for solutions. I don't think I'm addicted anymore, (I do it like once a week/two weeks give or take), but I just want to figure out a way to substitute the feeling of doing PMO so that I can stay focused.

For the people saying "masturbation has no benefits".... idk man... I'll say this, I can confirm that doing it every day will cause depression automatically, but every once in a while it does help me "reset my mind" and relieves any tension I feel. I'm Christian btw, so that makes this situation even more complicated. I'm honestly not sure if I want to stop forever, especially when:

1. 20 years old with no girlfriend
2. Not really that interested in a relationship atm because I know it's not the right time

yeah...

tl;dr - When I fap I am productive, when I don't fap I procrastinate but I do feel more social, don't know what to do

 

@SlightlyAboveAverage

Thanks for responding. Very interesting on the "lack of interest in a real relationship is one of those telltale signs of addiction." I never really thought of it like that. I did make it to like 22-25 days one time I can't really remember, but that's good info to know that it does get better!

Another thing that I've noticed is that it's pretty much impossible to do this without working out, at least from my experience. Thanks again, I'll take notes.

 

@SlightlyAboveAverage

I should have been more specific about my situation. It's not necessarily that I'm not into the idea of a relationship, it's just that, I know I have a purpose, right?, and I also know that I need to focus on that purpose. That's what I mean when I say I don't think it's the right time for me yet. However, I would be lying if I said I don't get lonely every once in a while. I don't really see a point in approaching a random female in a park when I got other things to worry about anyway. So... I guess I do what a gf in a way, but given my circumstances, I don't think it's really possible atm. That's why I choose to "not look for a relationship". But hey, many people say this is a good mindset to have anyway.

I'm glad things worked out for you though!

 

@SlightlyAboveAverage

Very interesting. Alright my friend. On the steak I go then. I'll get to that 30 days no matter what and observe how I'm feeling. Haven't really tried that yet. It's time though. Thanks again.