35 and Older Accountability Group

Checking in. Having running conversations in my mind, questioning my brain, keeping myself on path. Going to re-read Pema Chodron’s book on Shenpa (the Hook) now!

 

the strong urges are comming every time we relapse . i think its even worst than loosing semen retention from one O.

 

Dont loose your streak easily friend ! Things will get better and the urges less and less , if careful .The toughest is first 100 days , you almost have done that . It will be very wise of you to continue now with less efford. You have been saved now , but prepare mentally for a battle becouse it will happen again some day . And if you are not ready , you might not be so lucky next time !How to prepare - make and follow emergency plan ! I consider a relapse after big streak to be maybe biggest mistake of my life ! All the best friend !

 

check in saturday , medium urges , no naps during the day helps me to fell asleep quicker at night . its a big weapon!

 

Check in. Life goes on.

 

Check in... the Friday storm is over. I almost relapsed into M, but caught myself taking a wrong turn. I even considered edging, but I stopped way way before I had any sensations.

I even asked myself if this is the beginning of the end of my streak. Last time at the end of my streak (back in June) I started to look at P images, which undid me. I have absolutely no urges now. I hope this will blow over.

Friday evenings are the worst. Thankfully now my life is so different (two kids instead of one) that I barely have time for myself on Fridays.

 

Honestly, one of the reasons I did not relapse yesterday was this place... thinking of telling you guys that I f-ed up was just too much! Thanks for rooting for me and good luck to you too!

 

Count me in .
Gosh this platform
Is not user friendly - quite shite

 

Checking in...

 

check in sunday ! enjoy the end of the week pmo free way fellas!
pmo is a death trap !!!

 

Day 29, all good.

 

Day 11 and feeling free!

 

Fastforwarded one erotic movie in netflix.
Im not resetting my counter, I admit that it was foolish and weak of me, but no PMO. Next time I will reset my counter, if I do that again. Right now I think if I zero my counter ill give up. Im still on no PMO.
I leave it for you guys to decide, do you leave this streak going on for me in ranking or not. Im continuing my journey anyways. Right now I think honesty is most important for me than ranking.

 

Back to the beginning - the weekends are so much a mislead, as was mentioned a few posts ago @Despicable me. Can anyone start us off on any strategies for Saturday mornings onwards?

 

Day 2. After an 8 day hardmode streak.

Fell in a heap on Saturday night at about 7:30pm, was particularly ugly this time, sculled a couple of beers and began surfing.

The enemy sowing thoughts in my head all day of a particular p***s***, its dumbfounding how literally stupid and zombie like I become not paying attention to those thoughts crushing them then and there, rather I shrugged them off - careless thinking. 1 Peter 5:8 "Be alert and of a sober mind."

Later on I couldn't sleep as a demon was in my bedroom, didn't realise until I turned the light off and tried to sleep, put fear in my heart and I had to turn the light back on and start reading the Word and repenting big time, told it to get out...my own stupid fault because I basically invited it in - having my laptop open on my bed scrolling through pictures and videos for over two hours long is giving legal right for lustful demons to show up with a welcome light on...they are like, "Hey loser, we own you, you belong to us, your behaviour is so darn predictable." The demonic presence like that hasn't happened for a long time but it was a good wakeup call as the fear that thing brought into my room wasn't something anyone wants to experience.

Deciding to get off the computer more and off TV also. Please pray for me.

Hope you are all remaining strong.

Blessings.

 

Checking in on Day 4. No issues over the weekend. Way to busy for that!
Quite depressing being in single digits again. I’m longing for that clarity that comes from the higher double digit streaks. Time to get back there!